Praise Him In The Storm

2009-08-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

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2009-08-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

why?
why?
WHY?

why must i be the grown up?
why must i be the one providing everything?
can't i be the one who leans on someone?
can't i be the one that ask for things?
why must i be the one giving things all the time?

i'm really tired of all this..
tired of giving..

i know that God will bless those who gives wholeheartedly..
giving has always make me happy..
but...
when giving has become a habit for others to take..
when giving becomes your responsibility..
it just takes a toil..
giving becomes unwilling..
giving becomes a different thing..

the reason that i work now..
is not to save up or make myself feel better...
but instead..
i have became the provider..
for 6 persons...
and now, i don't get to enjoy..
the result of my sweat, blood and energy..
instead..
all has been taken away...
it's just so tiring..

i just feel like leaving..
just leaving everything..

after running..
calves hurts..
throat burning..
i feel so human..

today..
sliced my finger..
blood dripping non stop..
feel so so human...

please..
i ask of you..
please stay close..
don't go..
i need you..

2009-08-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

i just simply love going for community prayer on tuesdays..
i just feel the presence of God there while i'm praying..
God talks and perform wonders..

last Sunday's message..
"Changes"
speaks to me..

there are so many changes in our lifes..
in our family..
in our workplace..
in our relationship with friends..
but if we just stay at one place..
when the changes come..
we will be not be pleasing God..
we need to move on..
despite of all the changes..
changes happen so as to make us grow..
grow physically,
mentalitly,
and spiritually too..
there may be a period of mourning..
a period of sadness..
but after a short while,
we have to move on..
and get along with life..
may God help us..

my lappy is finally VIRUS-FREE!!! =)

2009-07-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

God
make me strong
make me wise
to help the people
who needs me
to comfort the people
who are in sadness
to be strong
for the people
who needs to be hold on

God
be with the people
who needs you
who seeks you
who needs strength

bring everybody to you
the undesireable
the untouchable
the unflavoured

bless her with good result
bless her with good health

2009-07-23T20:24:00.002+08:00

this has been a while since i last typed something into this space of mine.. all because of viruses and technology that is to be blamed.. but if i blame technology, it would be silly and stupid because.. there won't be computer or even blogs that tells our stories..

probably it's a good thing that viruses invaded.. somehow, without going online, i can get the excuse of sleeping earlier than before, that is, like as early as 9 at night.. have good night rest and wake up early to work fresh.. :)

this few days i have been jogging around my neighbourhood, early in the morning( due to sleeping early at night) before i go to work.. and i found out that it's really nice to have a run somehow.. keeps your mind fresh and off a lot of things..

full time work is not a joke.. it can be a torture for some or an enjoyment for others.. it's totally different from being a trainee.. more responsibilities.. but the stress is more or less there.. this is my second week.. but i have already feel that everything is weighing down on me everyday.. i guess i need to let it all down..

sometimes, somehow, i feel like closing up is a better choice than sharing.. why do i say that? hmmm.. because.. by closing up, you won't get hurt that much, you won't depend on people that is around you and that you won't burden them.. at the same time, let the problems out with tears.. but there's cons.. you will feel very terrible, very lonely, very tired and weary.. keeping all of that in your heart may make you strong.. but lets you fall deeper and deeper into depression..

so which one will you choose?? hmmmm....

hope i wish i can leave this country now for a while and enjoy outside the world.. being carefree.. and out of the problems..
but i have God to take them away..
So God..
take all the problems away..
just for now..
that's all i'm asking for..

hope that you're doing well
hope that you're coping with your studies
jia you :)

2009-07-12T20:44:00.003+08:00

Crying

as i was talking to Auntie Candy(Jovin's mum) this afternoon, somehow, we talked to the topic of crying.. she said that crying makes a person feel better.. makes a person feel happy..

i feel like crying..
tears are welling up in my eyes..
but they seems not to be heavy..
nor do they have the thought of leaving..
thus..
no tears are shed..
not like Jovin..
she has the freedom..
to cry free..
to laugh free..
without any restriction..

i feel like crying..
all feelings inside..
they just tired me down..
tears bring feelings out..
but..
no tears are out..
so..
feelings are still..
inside..

Will anyone cares about how i feel?
am i too understanding?
am i taken for granted?
i don't know..

please come back..

God take me..

2009-07-11T20:11:00.003+08:00

i'm so happy that my attachment is OVER!! WHOO OH!!!

erm... that's kinda late.. because today's already Saturday.. and 2 more days, i'll be starting my full time job.. and i ended my attachment on Monday.. so ya.. 5 days LATE!!

for the past few days, i have been busy.. hmmm.. you all must be wondering, why attachment finished still busy.. haha.. that's because i was in the "food team" for a event in church that was held yesterday, called 中华英雄.. it has a theme of everything China, from food to dressing to booth, and even drama based on chinese history!! and Emmanuel SPEAKS chinese! problem is he's a INDIAN!! cool!! everybody is in their best from China, from ancient generals to scholars to chinese heros to BEGGERS to PRISONERS to modern shanghai wear.. super cool!! and Region A got the BEST Food, YCG Male Leader and Staff!! Ultra COOL!!

Huan Zhu Ge Ge~~!!!

Long Live Begger Leader Ting Chun!

Best Dress Male YCG Leader - Dixon

Best Booth - Region C

Best Food - Region A

last Tuesday went to bird pask some how, because my friend forgot to let her supervisor to sign her logbook.. so somehow, i got to tour the bird park for FREE!! how cool is that?! haha!! watch the bird show and the birds(of course!)

through this past week, i have seen how selfish people are and their way of don't-care-ness.. props undone, and no one to help.. but they want to win.. how? haiz.. i hope something will change from this lesson..

to the someone(you know who you are):
i know that this few days, you have went through a lot.. but God is always there for you.. though you're tired, you can tab to God's unlimited strength.. life's short.. but though short, you will be with her forever with God forever in heaven, beside God. meanwhile, remember her in your sweetest and the best memories that you have with her.. because God has saved her for you..

2009-07-01T20:54:00.002+08:00

first and foremost,

Happy Youth Day

to all the kids reading :D

hmmm.. today i wasn't at work.. took a 1 day(or maybe 2 days) MC.. because i have developed some H1N1 symtoms - Cough, Flu, Sore Throat.. so to be social responsibility, i have seen a doctor, took medicine and MC.. but ending up, my work's piling up.. it's like if i take another day MC tomorrow, i'll be so dead when i go back, but if i go work tomorrow, i'll be dead because of the sickness.. i really don't know what to do..

i didn't even go for YCG.. i miss going YCG on Wednesday.. haiz.. i feel like i'm isolating myself today..:(

something about me when i'm sick..
i get kinda moody and emo whenever i'm sick.. and i will be sad, upset, and depressed.. i don't know why.. but i just feel that way.. and also.. i may just say things that will be very hurtful and i don't really mean them.. because i tend to think a lot during the resting time.. so things are just rubbish whenever i'm sick.. very negative and depressed...

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

you are not alone - Michael Jackson

2009-06-22T22:18:00.003+08:00

You've Got A Friend - James Taylor

You've Got A Friend
James Taylor

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, whoa nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name,
And you know whereever I am
I'll come running, oh yeah baby
To see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend.

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
And soon I will be knocking upon your door.

You just call out my name and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you got to do is call
And Ill be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey, ain't it good to know that youve got a friend?
People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you.
Well they'll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but dont you let them.

You just call out my name and you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Oh babe, dont you know that,
Winter spring summer or fall,
Hey now, all youve got to do is call.
Lord, I'll be there, yes I will.
You've got a friend.
You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know youve got a friend.
Ain't it good to know youve got a friend.
You've got a friend.

2009-06-22T21:43:00.002+08:00

in life, there are so many things to be happy about, so many things to be sad about, so many things to be angry about..

just take example for the past few days, i have seen a number of happy matters, sad moments, angry incidents.. and also some tired problems..

i just want to thank God that for Jovin, she has been making very improvement with her condition.. she can now make eye contacts with people whenever someone calls her.. everybody has been praying for her, keeping her in prayer.. i pray that she will one day, stands up and recover, and give her own testimony, praising God for His Healing hands and miracle on her..

"Jovin.. fight on! Da Ge knows that you can.. and that God is always there with you.."

and this is for someone i know(you know who you are..):
"i know it's really hard for you to get to know that what's going on to the person that you really cares about.. i do feel for you too.. but always know that one day, you will see her in Heaven again.. to a place where there's no pain and suffering, a place where she's with Jesus.. pray for her.. renew her faith.. and you yourself.. never lose faith and sight of God.."

i also want to thank God for this week(though it's only Monday) that there isn't any much things to do.. so much more relax than the previous week.. :)

2009-06-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

work for the past few days, more to last week, has been like a rusing train, getting from one station to another.. lots of last minute functions and a huge volume of people coming in.. so therefore, i have to like skipped my lunch and breaks in order justto fnish each day's work.. and after each day, a pair of tired legs, after standing for close to 10 over hours, dragging a tired body home.. and then the next day starts again..

slowly.. slowly.. i feel that i can't take the toil of all these working anymore.. i just feel very tired.. lying on my bed each night.. not thinking to wake up the next day.. it has become a dreadful thing slowly..

but i believe that God has a plan for everything.. that God has a reason for everything that i'm going through right now.. and that i shouldn't question God.. just obey..

no matter in whatever you do,
have Faith in God..
never give up on God..
because He has never give up on you..

i miss you..

2009-06-05T12:06:00.003+08:00

i have a urge to learn riding a motor bike..

haha.. i know that's really random.. but somehow, this thought just came into my mind, like 3 to 4 days ago..

2009-06-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

will anybody know how i feel???

2009-06-03T22:28:00.001+08:00

Rain Down - Delirious

2009-06-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

Is this the real life
Is this just fantasy
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
Im just a poor boy,i need no sympathy
Because Im easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesnt really matter to me,
To me

Sometimes things don't go your way
but God's always at your side
watching you
holding you

How I wish..
How I wish..
this is what everybody think..
"How i wish..
i'm taller"
i'm prettier"
i'm richer"

but the fact is that..
you're not..

however, despite of me saying that..
me too wish..
how i wish, i was gone..
on that night..
down on the road..

but at the same time..
i thank God for His protection..
that i'm able to live to this day..
knowing and learning things..
things that i'll not know
things that i'll not learn
if i'm gone..

God..
why?
why do you put me here?
why do you put me in this place?
in this family?
tired and beaten i am..
but here i am..
further tired and beaten down..
why?
why?

How i wish..
there's a person of the same faith..
in the place that i work..
that the person will understand..
what i'm going through..

How i wish..
i can have a break down..
so that..
stress can be released..

How i wish..
i have not taken the wrong way..
i have not done the wrong things..

everything's going according to God's plan..
God has a plan for everyone..
lessons for you to learn..
problems to make you stronger..
tougher..
God has His way..

tired..
spiritually,
emotionally
physically..

do not shut..
do not shut..
do not shut the heaven..

But open up..
open up..
open up my heart..

2009-05-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

it has been a rainy afternoon on a Tuesday..

okay.. that sounds like i'm going to write a LONG story.. but i guess i don't bored people to sleep with my entries.. haha!!

it's been a long time since i last wrote something in this space.. so i try to make everything short and sweet..

WORK
everything has been a very BIG mess since the retrenchment exercise.. the last time that i wrote in this space, i said that i took charge of one of the department, THE BUTCHERY*with music*(that's lame... -.-|||)

well, after a week or so, the head chef, who all of us refers as ANG MO because he is one, decided to close the butchery down.. so ya.. down it close.. and i was somehow being transferred to the COLD KITCHEN*with music*(-.-|||) Cold kitchen is where we normally make our appretizers like salads and stuff(more to the vegetable side)for functions and events.. so i was like fine to work there.. and during that time, as my attachment is coming to an end, naturally, it's time to clear my leaves slowly instead of clearing it one shot.. so as i was asking the chef-in-charge(He's a NATIONAL TEAM CHEF..... WHO CARES!!!) that is it possible to clear my leaves.. and all of you guess what was his response?? "Why do every trainees, upon coming to my department, starts to clear leaves? why don't they do it earlier?"(I'm just putting it nicely.. actually, it's much more louder..) then after that, i said "Okay.. never mind.." mother's day and church camp week - REJECTED!! so i was fine with it.. well.. after that, he was not in good term with me.. i'm okay with him.. just that HIS CHARACTER that i really hate.. sacastic, addition MEANINGS to his words.. to cut the story short, he told my head chef that he don't like me and wanted to transfer me OUT of his department.. and the head chef AGREED.. you may think that that's the end of me right?? WRONG!! i was tranferred back the BUTCHERY*with music* they reopen that department because they couldn't handle the meat and seafood stuff.. so head chef suggested that i go back there and get everything right again.. WHOO OH!! Sunday off.. with no face colour to see much.. who can ask for more?? even the head chef also said that i'm more happier in Butchery than Cold Kitchen.. haha!! PRAISE AND THANKG GOD!!! :D
and i may even have a job there after attachment.. :D

LESISURE
i think i have been watching quite a number of movies since i have a stable working timing and sunday offs.. and even starting to clear my leaves, starting from this week, on this very day! First day of the first 2 days of clearing leaves.. :D let me see.. what movies have i watched..

Handsome Suit!
it's a very cute show.. by wearing a suit, it can make you the most HANDSOME person in the world.. how i wish i have one of that.. but to think of it, i don't want that.. because character is MORE important.. that's what i feel.. haha!!

The Ramen Girl
another cute show that even an AMERICAN girl can master the art of cooking RAMEN from a JAPANESE chef, who has language barrier.. because cooking uses not only the right ingredients and methods and skills.. but also the heart and spirit..(REMEMBER THIS POINT, JOYCE!!! REMEMBER!!)

Confession Of A Shopaholic
nice movie that shows us why excessive shopping is BAD for you.. :P

Wolverine - X-men Origins
SUPER NICE MOVIE!!! COOL CLAWS!! now then i know about how Wolverine lost his memories.. poor guy.. but in return, he has the BEST WEAPON.. he's the WEAPON X!!

and today - Night Of The Museum 2
very funny movie.. 2 monkeys this time.. with lots of history people.. haha!! I'm thinking.. I'm thinking.. I'm thinking.. I'm thinking.....

and now, i'm at Library @ Esplanade, writing this long and winding entry.. enjoying my afternoon..

the library at the Esplanade has been my best place to hang out.. as in a quiet place.. peace and quiet.. the times that i studied and worked for my WINE project, with long, diffcult names of grapes to remember..(REMEMBER? :D) studying for tests and exams after Sunday's church service.. watching movies at a quiet corner of the library.. or just sitting at the cafe, which is like now, just enjoying the music and.. just relax... and when i'm tired of the air con, i can go to the rooftop to admire the night lights at the business area and the sky.. the stars.. how i wish time don't pass.. haha!! i miss those days..

WHOO!! LONG ENTRY ALERT!!
this entry is really long... i think it's time to stop here.. before it gets longer.. haha!!

anyway, may God bless all of you readers and have a good week ahead :D

2009-05-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

Making the Right Decision

let me ask you.. what if someone offers you a job, that you'll have to start work after your graduation? a job that the salary has not fixed, but benefits fixed.. what will you do? will you accept it?

haha!! i have known someone who has done this very cute and funny thing today.. when appoaching the faregate, that person took out the ATM card and tabbed it on the sensor!!! and when realised the mistake, face was red and took our the EZ link card.. haha!! i have to say sorry to that person that i have to say this joke.. haha!!

I'm Sorry... :P

2009-05-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

Home Sweet Home
Carrie Underwood

You know, I am a dreamer
When my heart is gold
I had to run away high
so I wouldn't come home low
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they were always wrong
Just take this song
And you'll never feel left all alone
Take me to your heart
Feel me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm coming off this long and winding road

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight , Tonight
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home

You know that I seen
So many romantic dreams
Up in lights
Fallin' off the silver screen
My heart's like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometimes nothing , that keeps me
Together at the seams

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home

Tonight , Tonight
I'm on my way
To set me free
Home sweet home

Ooooo

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home

Yeaa

I'm on my way
To set me free
Home sweet home

2009-05-02T00:19:00.002+08:00

God Is Smiling - Delirious?

God Is Smiling - Delirious?

Open up the gates of love
Turn the tide and stop the flood
You've got my heart now, got my soul.
So who is my neighbor? Where's the love
That speaks for those our world has lost?
It's every heart now, every soul.

We are one, when our beating [bleeding] hearts belong
And our love can be the revolution.
That sees your kingdom come.

Yeah.

God is smiling over us tonight
God is smiling over us tonight
Where hearts are broken, love unites
God is smiling, God is smiling over us tonight

So we must cross the great divide
Of color, creed; of wealth, and pride
Break our hearts and save us all
So can we sing a brand new song
Where former enemies belong?
It's every heart now, every soul.
[ Delirious? Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

We are one, when our breathing [bleeding] hearts belong
And our love can be the revolution
That sees your kingdom come

God is smiling over us tonight
God is smiling over us tonight
Where hearts are broken, love unites
God is smiling
God is smiling over us tonight...

Hey.

Who-o-oho
Who-o-oho
Who-o-oho

Because you are the centre
You are the centre
You are my centre

God is smiling over us tonight
God is smiling now we're one tonight

Break The Silence - Delirious?

Break The Silence - Delirious?

Citizens with a secret in our hands
That could ignite our shadow lands
Light it up and let it go
Let it shine with love and grace and a redesign
A ray of hope for the common man
Light it up and let it go

Oh, oh, oh,
We've got to give it away
And there's a price to pay
When we give it away

Break the silence, break the silence,
Cross ever boundary that divides us, divides us
Break the silence, break the silence,
Cross ever border that divides us, oh, unite us

We turn the page, to a future just begun
If heaven is real then let our heaven become
Peace on earth, let it flow.
We raise our voice where the colours all but gone
Paint the world with redemption songs
Stir it up let it flow

This Is Our God - Hillsong

This Is Our God - Hillsong

Your grace is enough
More than I need
At Your word I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your Spirit make me new

CHORUS:
I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

VERSE 2:
Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your Spirit I am free

BRIDGE:
Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is our God
Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is our God

Healer - Hillsong

Healer - Hillsong

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

Pre-Chorus:

I trust in You
I trust in You

Chorus:

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

[Repeat Verse]

[Repeat Pre-Chorus}

[Chorus]

Bridge:

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

[Repeat]

[Chorus]

Handsome_suite_Theme_song_My_revolution.mp3 -

My Revolution - Handsome Suit Theme Song

haha!! this song is from the movie.. for those who watched the movie, he set his ringtone to his song - his song of motivation!! haha!!

i find that children can say the most funniest things that can make people laugh! for example : they will say : "Is my tongue having fever?" just because the child has just ate a small piece of ginger.. haha!!

2009-04-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

i shouldn't have expect much from people...
when you expect too much from them,
they, instead of bringing you up, let you drop deeper..

2009-04-21T22:09:00.002+08:00

slow day

today was a nice and slow day for me.. i began my day with a breakfast that i cooked myself from the restaurant, at my workplace.. haha!! SCRAMBLED EGGS!! and BACONS!! and of course.. my favourite.. PANCAKES!! i don't know why.. but i'll kick into high mode when there is pancakes...

then after that, a scroll back to my room.. haha!! taking everything slowly.. it's sad to see that my department on the edge of closing down... but they have no choice.. but at the same time, i can foresee that the kitchen will be very messy when they have to order their own meat..

after that, went out.. Chinatown for TANG YUAN!! another high kicker.. haha!! just love to eat tang yuan.. don't know why.. haha!!

as for yesterday and today, i have learnt that having a child-like faith is very important.. and that even SHORT PRAYERS do work TOO!!! someone that i know has even demostrated it to me for the past 2 days.. haha!! "Lord.. I pray that I won't get fat.." that prayer was the ultimate!! but i have to say this.. child-like faith is really important.. because if you don't have that, you will keep on thinking that the things that you wished for will not happen.. then in the end, you will just missed out in the blessing that God wants to give you.. take for example, that someone that prayed these SHORT PRAYERS has just got a bowl of tang yuan from me.. because i lost.. haiz.. that's a blessing..

another thing that i have learnt from the past week was to look on the inside and not on the outward appearance.. i learnt from the movie "Handsome Suit".. sometimes, looks may have a upper hand in confidence-wise.. but it's the inner character that is important.. because if you look handsome or pretty, but you have a very bad attitude or bad character, your looks will not even help much in you doing good.. but if you have a good attitude or character, but not having a good look, people will still admire you.. so having a good character and attitude is important..

SHORT PRAYER:
"Lord.. Bless everybody that i know.. In Jesus' Name.. Amen!" :D

2009-04-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

Good Friday

as i have promised to write, and that also promised to write something special from the last entry, i shall write about:

A DAY IN THE KITCHEN (GOOD FRIDAY)

(Excluding pictures)

It all started at:

7.55am - I have just reached my work place, and that i have just clocked in.. just in case you don't know what's clocking in.. that's to keep track that you come to work.. so when you don't clock in, NO PAY!! so ya.. being a GOOD boy and clock in.. haha!! after that, got my uniform and then of course.. CHANGE!!

8.00am - as usual, i would check my pigeon hole(now that i'm in charge.. HAHA!!) for any event orders and LAST MINUTE EVENTS(I HATE THEM!!).. and then open my office(actually not mine, but shared among 4 OVERGROWN GUYS and 1 UNDERGROWN BOY.. haha!! if you know what i meant) to get my first part of my paperwork done.. ordering of ingredients.. Boy, it's really tiring to do that early in the morning.. imagine you haven't really fully wake up and you have to face so much words and numbers.. and also have to think about what to order and stuff.. haha!! HEADACHE!!

8.30am - 10.30am - i went to my room(Okay.. this room is REALLY MINE!!!) and started to work.. checking all the current functions and things-to-do.. more HEADACHE!! during this 2 hours, it's like the most busy time for me.. because most of the meat and seafood comes in at this time.. so everything have to be kept and stored properly to avoid any spoiltage.. chicken, beef, fish and seafood.. i'm able to handle them now :D all thanks to God and His wisdom :D

10.30am - since most of the things were been done during the 2 hours of madness, at 10.30, things got slowed down by a big lot..

11.00am - normally, i won't want to find any breakfast.. but as for Good Friday, i was hungry.. so i went to pastry kitchen and to find my pastry chef.. BREAKFAST TIME!!! she told me that she had some Danish Pastry to be clear.. so i CLEARED them for her.. INTO MY STOMACH!! haha!!

11.15am - after eating and feeling full, i went back to my room to continue working..

12.30pm - after working for 4 and a half hours, it's finally...

LUNCH TIME!!!

1.30pm - i went back to work a bit, since i have completed most of it before lunch..

3.30pm - so by 3.30, my main job was done and packed up and cleaned and washed.. JOB DONE!! but i can't go home yet.. so....

3.30pm ~4.30pm - i went over to Pastry Kitchen to help out.. they needed more manpower to bake and make the cakes.. so here i was, baking and mixing and doing cakes.. haha!! it was really fun and there was lots of laughing and joking around..

5.00pm - when the clock strikes 5, i was like Cinderella, changed and TIME TO GO HOME!!!

that will be the working day on GOOD FRIDAY..

as for the pictures, i will post them up in another day...

i wish to watch more MOVIES!! craving for movies!!! haha!!!

2009-04-09T21:00:00.002+08:00

I really don't get it....

haha!! for the past 9 months travelling to Harbourfront and then to Sentosa, early in the morning, it can be a very painful experience.. painful because, partly, i have to wake up early in the morning to catch the bus so that i won't get late to work.. another part of the painful is because..

people travelling to Harbourfront are mostly construction workers that are working at the new IR site, which is the Resort World.. and most of them are FOREIGN WORKERS.. and i really and seriously don't get it.. they would like to RUN and BANG into people once they are out of the train.. and some of them, once the door of the train opens, they are like running to get the bset bargin, running up the escalator.. as if they are like on the hurry.. i really don't get it.. why do they have to run and bang? and sometimes, STEPPING ON MY TOES!!! haha!!

i have learnt something out of the retrenchment exercise that has happened in my workplace.. anything can happen even you're a high position chef.. one of my chef has been retrenched.. so because of that, i have to take over his work..

in the beginning, i was really unwilling to do his work.. because i felt that it's really unfair for a trainee like me to do something that a high position chef does, such as writing market list, making decisions, doing everything myself, and being the one having all the responsibilites.. because the pay of a high position chef is about $3000-$4000 plus.. whereas, my pay, or should i say, allowance, is only $500 per month.. and that's without and benefits.. so it's really unfair..

but after working for like 2 weeks, stress bound to have builded up in me.. paperwork, decision to make.. so many times, i wanted to just take MC and just do what i can.. but after that, i felt that i'm just selfish, to think that way.. so now, i just do everything with my best, to glorify God, because God put me in position for a reason..

and for the past week, i have learnt something out of the work.. Time management.. how to plan things in the sense that i can do them fast and so that i cn go home early or on time.. it's really not easy to plan things.. because you'll never know what LAST MINUTE things that might show up..

another thing that i have learnt is that to think ahead.. another thing that is not easy.. but still trying hard to do it well.. :)

someone told me that always to have good attitude during work.. firstly, it's to show that you have God in you.. secondly, you will feel better while working.. :) and i just want to say a big thank you to that person.. you should know who are you.. :)

Good Friday is tomorrow and i still have to work.. so sad.. :(
but i'm going to something special!! :P

2009-03-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

"How, in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, became my bravest. When feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been."

"They all border one another, those opposites, and ow quickly we can be altered."

"Despair can be altered by one simple smile offered by a stranger; confidence can become fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence."

2009-03-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

finally have the time to update this so-called dead blog.. haha!!

Deadlines

All of us has deadlines to meet. Different people has different deadlines to meet.. For students, deadlines for projects, homework, deadline to hand in their corncent forms for their favourite school outing.. For adults, work projects, deadline for rushing to meet people, and even eating lunch.. Just take for example, for me, deadlines is part and pacel of life as I'm working in the kitchen. Whenever orders of food comes in, there will be a deadline for me to deliver the already cooked food out within minutes.. And thus produce Stress..

For the whole week of this week, I have gone back to the first department that I have started my attachmet with - The Butchery. Because the Chef that is in charge of that department is, once again, gone for HOLIDAY.. so he asked me to take care of the department for him.. And everyday, I have so much deadlines to meet, that is to provide the meat and seafood that is needed to be cooked to serve to the customers.. So rushing here and there has been a part of my "stay" in the department.. but coming Monday, it will be the last day of my "stay"! End of my stressful week! I just want to thank God for the wisdom in working there..

Tomorrow will be the day that I will know whether I will be retrenched as a trainee.. Yes. You heard it right.. Retrenchment.. And I have heard of the first retrenchment just a few days ago.. that person was a trainee from the pastry department.. The Chef for that department was really upset and angry with the Head Chef and the HR management.. And I have heard that more people will be axed too.. Trainees especially.. I just really hope that I won't be one of them as I have left only 3 more months to the end of the attactment..

"God.. Protect my attachment, that I will not be retrenched.. And that I can finish my attachment.."

Tomorrow will be also the first match of the Inter Hotel Soccer Tournment.. With so much things happening, I don't really know whether all of us has the mood and spirit to even play, when our jobs are not even really secured..

2009-03-07T21:37:00.003+08:00

for the past few days, i have been really having a very good workout.. just think of this.. last Wednesday, i had soccer training.. plus, i had RT on Thursday and Sunday, and then the following Sunday, soccer training again.. i'm really getting fit again.. haha!! :)

i felt, for the past few days, that trying to be happy at work was really very difficult.. given the fact that people in the kitchen would do very differently each and individually.. and you really don't know who and what method to follow.. haiz..

Someone showed me something about friendships.. 1 Samuel 20 - it shows us King David, before he is king, and Jonathan, King Saul's Son.. the friendship between King David and Jonathan is one that is very, very close.. as close as brothers in the same blood line.. you see.. David is the king anointed by God.. Jonathan is the rightful heir to King Saul to the throne.. but Jonathan gave his chance to the throne to David, making Daivd the king of Israel, because he knew that David is the rightful one to the throne since he's anointed by God.. and he gave without any complain!! if it's anyone of us, if our best friend should be the righful, anointed one for king, we wouldn't even give up because we get to the rule the country and how cool will that be.. Jonathan DID!!

what i'm trying to say is that.. where can you find such a friendship in the world right now.. people are just looking toward others to get something out from them.. so in order to do that, we need to be FRIENDS with that person.. would you give up something that you want, to someone that is your best friend who is the rightful owner without any complain? that's what is in my mind since the past 2 weeks..

what i have shared may be offensive to some of the readers out there.. but i just get something out of mind somehow.. so i'm sorry that i have offended anyone somehow.. i'm sorry..

2009-03-07T21:32:00.001+08:00

now, it's half moon....

in a few days, it will be full moon...

2009-03-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps gettin in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I
Gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never wanted to hurt you
what about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
I'll miss you

So
I've got to move on and be who I am
(Why do you have to go?)
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
(I'm trying to understand)
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
(I want you to stay)
I gotta go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am
(What about us?)
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
(I'm trying to understand)

We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

2009-02-19T20:57:00.002+08:00

today was the first training

training soccer with the team from my workplace was fun and exciting and FUN.. erm.. did i say fun twice? YES!! it was fun.. though it's at a very small and without any goal posts.. it's just like the past, my younger days, where i used to play under the void deck, shouting at each other, and dribbling around the pillars.. during that time, whenever anyone of us, be it me or my friends have a ball(tennis ball, plastic air-blown ball, soccer ball etc), we would just tell everyone that to meet after school, that means SOCCER TIME! there was once that i told my grandma that i have tuition in that afternoon, and that i had to stay in school.. but in actual fact, tuition was cancelled, and the whole afternoon was spent playing soccer.. in the end, she found out and was caned and scolded.. haha!! that was like primary school..

back to the present.. training was fun, except that i fell just at the start of the warming-up(running).. kinda crap.. but i just laughed it over.. and didn't think about it after that.. wearing a new boots is so comfortable.. not that my old pair is not.. it's just that it's new and ya.. clean.. haha! anyway, i feel like Beckham! doing the crossing and kicking free kicks.. i just want to thank God for what He has done for me.. giving me the ability to kick.. the ball just spin in the air.. how COOL is that ??!!

i think there is some problem with my right ankle nowadays.. just pain suddenly and then subside.. don't know what's wrong.. haha!

ending here!!
May God bless all of you!! :)
smile!! :)

2009-02-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

Kitchen can really be dangerous!!

last week, as i can remembered.. there was an explosion in the kitchen that i'm working in, at my workplace.. i was just positioned just 2 feet away from the stove.. and my colleagues were like using the stove.. when suddenly, the whole stove just exploded in front of our eyes! YES! EXPLODED!! a rush of gas rushed out from the drawer below the stove and the door of it flew open.. and also the knobs of the stove flew out, hitting anything that is in its path.. so, that means, if anyone of us in the way, it would just means that injury.. or worse.. "No Father Day" as the army guys will put it in simple terms.. HAHA!! but Thank God that no one was injured or anything.. and then for the rest of the day, that particular stove was banded "UNSAFE" until the technician come.. and when the technician came and checked, the truth has came to light about the explosion.. a dirt clot along the inside of the gas pipe that made the gas flow not smooth.. so thus, instead of the gas flowing upwards, it flows downwards.. and with the fire, on top.. lights the gas and causes the explosion.. kitchen can really be dangerous... haiz..

for the past few days, i've been fighting a battle with a person named "Myself".. it's a battle that only i can fight against(as someone has said.. thank you to that person) and because of that, i became feeling terrible and emo.. but i'm getting better each day, Thanks to GOD, who provided me with the strength.. and i would like to share something..

smiling may seems to be a easy thing to do when you're happy or joyful.. but do you know that it's also a very difficult thing to do when you're pissed off with someone or something, or when you're sad, or when you're angry when things don't go your way.. so God has taught me that to smile in what situations that i am.. even with the smallest things.. smile! and then work, studies, or even play will be much more nicer! :)

May God bless all of you richly for the rest of the week!!

2009-02-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

seeing different faces and working attitudes in work..

for this week, i have seen different working attitudes in a span of 3 hours.. it was yesterday afternoon.. as we were required to clean the chiller and arrange it, people would start to run away.. that afternoon actually has nothing else to do, sut suddenly people could just come up with something else to do except cleaning up the chiller.. cleeaning chiller is actually a very tiring and boring job.. because we are to take out everything from the chiller and then to check eveything to make sure that the vegetables and meats etc are not spoilt.. and also cleaning the racks and floor of the the walk in chiller..

so as i was saying, people during this time, will be "very" busy finding other things to do except cleaning tthe chiller.. i call them the "Hole Digger", as they find "holes" just to escape from doing things.. then there are some people who will clean, but will boss around, asking people to do, whereas they themselves just talking, or just touch a bit, and "let the talking do the working".. i call them the "Big Mouths".. and there are the rest.. the "Obedience Pack", that will just say, "Orh.." and quietly do them..

i have found a theory while i was peeling and cutting and chopping up onions for the past weeks.. and ya, work's so boring that i can come up with funny theories..

that is, ONIONS CAN TALK AND TELL YOUR FEELINGS!! believe me a not, it's true.. for the past week, just peeling onions on different occassions show myself feelings that i have in myself.. almost all of us know that peeling or cutting onions can make you cry.. that's true.. and it is only true IF YOU'RE FEELING SAD OR ANGRY IN YOUR HEART.. but when you're happy, you will not cry.. but that don't give you a reason to use the whole onion to rub your eyes!! somehow i find this theory quite true.. maybe to myself.. but believe it a not, it's up to you.. :)

last Sunday something happened while i was playing soccer at Hougang.. Shawn was somehow cut by something that we don't know what.. and the cut itself was really deep.. his muscle can be seen and it's near to the ankle area.. and he was like freaking out, didn't want his parents to know.. but you know.. parents in the end know.. becuse i called them.. stitches are required to close it up.. so i kindly request people to pray for him for speedy recovery, and that there will not be any infection.. thank you..

tomorrow will be a relax day(i hope) as i'm having a soccer selection for my workplace as they are taking part for the inter hotel soccer tournment.. never heard of it? neither do i.. so just join for fun.. since i have nothing to do tomorrow.. pray for the best..

shall end here..

God bless all of you for the rest of the weeks!! :)

2009-02-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

i so miss the events in church..

thinking about the Yellow Festive on Saturday let me think back to have to help out in making the props and preparing for the food and stuff in the past.. well.. nowadays, i don't really have the time to do all that due to all the work commitments that i have.. and also, partly because i don't really know what's going in church like events and stuff.. anyway, i was able to make it for the concert in the evening after the stalls and games.. i tell you.. i would like to relive that night again.. because of the songs that are sang and the short message that was shared by Pastor Lim Gee Tiong.. all that really touched my heart and just teared by all that.. especailly the song by Pastor Lim Gee Tiong "Hold My Hand" in FuJian.. that was the finale.. people just went up to stage, wanting to receive Jesus as their Lord and Saviour.. it's really touching and heartwarming to see that scene from the back of the sanctuary.. people just streaming down until the front was full..

then the next day, that particular song was playing in my head and i was like singing along with it.. by the way, the following day after the concert was a Sunday.. and Pastor Lim Gee Tiong was the speaker for that day.. so i TOTALLY MISSED ALL THAT!! haiz.. and i really miss going to church on Sundays.. the service, the sermons, and especailly the presence of God.. you can just cry and cry and cry just by feeling the presence of God.. it's just overwhelming..

so that Sunday, work was really slow and boring.. not as in cooking is boring.. but tto think of it, whenever there is no business, means no functions or events coming in, and no functions or events means no people.. and no people means no cooking needed.. so ya.. on that day, the whole load of us were like just standing around in the kitchen, either looking for things to do, or talking away.. and the good thing was that they decided to let us off early.. so going home early.. and i went playing soccer after that, rushing from Harbourfront to home and from home to Hougang just to play soccer.. and that costs me 25 bucks.. haiz..

and so.. Monday was also a long and nothing-to-do day.. so early release.. so i went for some books buying session.. and i think i'm hooked to this local writer called Low Kay Hwa.. previously bought 3 books of his, and yesterday bought another 2 books.. these are books that are not really thin but they talk about problems and things that students faced in Singapore.. especailly in JC.. masks, proverty, etc..

and here i am.. off on a Tuesday once again.. writing entry for my blog.. changing my blogskin and URL.. still thinking what to do after this.. shall end it here..

2009-01-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

The Clouds are to be BLAMED!!

why do i say that? it's all back to Chinese New Year day 1.. oh ya..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

as some of you all knows(i think only 2 of you knows)why i don't make visitations during CNY.. whos says that i don't like ang pow?? i need the money somehow to survive.. haha.. so on DAY 1, i was having no plans with anyone.. well.. everyone's busy visiting relatives and collect ang pows.. so left me alone.. sob sob.. so back to the story.. so that day, i went to the Singapore Science Centre.. actually i heard about the partially Solar Eclipse a few days before the day comes on TV.. so i was thinking of going to have some "self" fun there..

it's been a few years since i last visited the Science Centre(too long to remember).. anyway, i reached there super early.. oh, by the way, i'm not really like a typical Singaporean who loves to reach early so that can get first or whatever.. actually it's my dad's idea and it's him who drove me there early.. so ya.. back to the story.. there wasn't any barrier set up to indicate for the flow of the queue.. so you can imagine how EARLY i was.. so i asked the staff there, for th time to queue up.. he said 4.30pm.. so i went to a nearby cafe in the science centre.. to cut the story short, i had something at the cafe, and as i was sitting in the cafe, i was wondering why is there a long queue? and it's only 3pm.. "that queue is to enter into the Observatory" then i was like thinking, "Why people has already queued up when you said that queueing starts at 4.30pm?" so in the end, i went all the way to the back to queue..

as i was waiting in the queue, i was disgusted with the people in the queue, especially the Chinese.. behind along the queue was a little kid, waiting for his turn.. so as he was waiting, his father and brother just cut into the queue..and then after a while, the 3 of them went out of the queue, but didn't inform any one in the queue.. so normally, you would just close up the gap.. when the 3 of them came back, they were like wanting to cut back into the line.. and cut in they did, just in front for the Chinese People.. so to cut the story short again,they got back into the line.. DISAPPOINTMENT NUMBER 1

when it was time for me to use the telescope for 30 SECONDS(which also practically means i haven't really using it for long), it was 4.30pm, where the moon was still quite a distance away from the sun.. DISAPPOINTMENT NUMBER 2

so at 4.30, the moon was still quite far away to the sun..

at 5pm, the moon was slightly nearer..

at 5.20, the moon was covering half of the sun...
the pictures are taken by my phone.. and it was blocked by a sheet of protective lens provided by the Science Centre on glasses for you to wear to watch the Partially Solar Eclipse..

because of the clouds that came covering the sun at 5.35pm, i couldn't see the eclipse happened at 5.49pm.. at that point of time, i was really disappointed, putting the blame on everything that could have contribute to the cause..DISAPPOINTMENT NUMBER 3

but to think of it, all of those are God's creations, and blaming them is equals to blaming God.. so ya.. God's will for not letting me watch the eclipse..

after that, went home and while i was at the top-up machine, i was queueing up(again!) to top up(of course!) my ez link card.. in front of me was 2 _____ guys(i will not be RACIST!).. somehow, they don't know how to use the machine.. they tried like 5 to 6 times(argh!!) before they asked me for help.. and at this moment, 1 more _____ guy(again, i will NOT be RACIST!) just banged through to the 2 guys in front of me, cutting my queue.. then after the 2 guys, HE USED THE MACHINE!! WHAT THE CRAP!! and somemore, the 2 guys don't know him!! haiz.. probably i'm destined to be cut-queued by people in my lifetime.. haiz..

yesterday went to PS for dinner and also got myself 2 books which were written by a local author.. the books' titles are "I Believe You" and "To Forget You".. they are like love stories.. the storyline is quite predictable, but once in a while reading these type of stories touches your heart.. very sweet lines.. and i cried reading one of the books.. someone thinks that i'm too emotional when reading these kind of books.. so ya..

"Love is a simple thing. It's either you love, or you don't. You can try everything, alomost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it boils down to this: Either you love, or you don't.."

2009-01-24T09:41:00.002+08:00

watching movies at the comfort of your own home is always the best.. because the fact that you can just pause the movie before the most exciting part while you goes for a toilet break, or a search for snacks, or even better, fixing yourself a meal.. and why is it good watching movies at home? becaue you don't need to purchase any tickets and long gone with the queues, and that you can eat ANYTHING you want while watching the movie, without people telling you "Sir, you cannot bring that it.." and stuff..

well.. that's cons to that too.. bad sound quality.. small screen.. or even nagging mum asking you to do this and that every 5 minutes..

that's what i did yesterday - my first off day for this week

i have watched like 3 shows - Band Of Brothers ep.4(Band Of Brothers has 10), Blood Diamond and The Chonicles Of Narnia.. but the show that impacted me the most was Blood Diamond

Blood Diamond, acted by Leonardo Dicaprio and Jennifer Connelly, talks about the conflict in the search for diamonds. those diamonds found are called Conflict Diamonds or Blood Diamonds. R.U.F.(Revolutionary United Front), a rebel group, formed in Sierra Leone are usually because of these kinds of diamonds, and that they will raid villages, killing people to prevent them to vote for their government(R.U.F thinks that THEY ARE THE GOVERNMENT who protect the people), and also at the same time, recruiting people to mine in diamond mines and to capture children to join their groups and turn them into "CHILD SOLDIERS".

there is other people like the character Leonardo Dicaprio acts in, as Danny Archer, a ex-mercenary from Zimbabwe, working for the sides of the Army, to get hope of all these diamonds from R.U.F., and export them illegally to buyers all over the world so that the money can be funds for the R.U.F. to buy weapons and ammunitions, and equipments. until one day, a fisherman, who was captured by R.U.F., found a largest piece of diamond while mining, and hid it somewhere. from there, the movie starts becuse that diamond can fetch a very high price.

till today, Conflict diamonds are still mined and sold to the markets to buyers.. and this diamonds are mixed with the real diamonds that are mined legally to be made into rings and necklaces.. and Child Soldiers still exist in Sierra Leone.. 200,000 in total..

i would like to sing a song:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAITH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

i hope that all your wishes come true and continue to walk in the Lord!
by the way, by doing this, people won't know when is your birthday and so, you can rest assured that your birthday is still safe, i hope.. haha! because given the rate of my entries, it can be a week ago, or just few days ago.. haha!!

having 2 days off is nice.. but you have to think what to do.. well.. for me, today will be the day where i head to SCGS for HEART.SPORTS! SOCCER!! missed the first match last week.. heard that they won the match by a goal - 2-1
Well Done Region A!

i shall blog until here.. until next time..

tata~

2009-01-22T00:03:00.002+08:00

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You’re my God

You’re altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love’s sake became poor

I’ll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

2009-01-19T22:25:00.003+08:00

People just don't believe and trust what i said about myself..

once they asked me : "Can you go do a function on a boat?" and my answer was : "No.. i have SEA SICK.." and they don't believe me.. i was referring to my chef that i'm working for now.. until they saw it for themselves last Saturday..

it was the last day of the teams from the Volvo Ocean Race to have their last preparation and last gathering before they can meet their family members and friends for another 4 weeks or more as they are to sail out on Sunday afternoon.. so there was a function, more to a gathering, a standing pub style on a floating platform.. yes, you heard it right.. A FLOATING PLATFORM.. on water.. a platform that goes up and down.. like a boat.. my chef asked me that question when i first went to their department.. and that was my answer.. so on Saturday itself, he asked me whether i can take a floating platform, which i said that i couldn't.. but insisted he was, asking me to work overtime on a floating platform with them, providing burgers and hot dogs for the sailors.. and when we first arrived at the platform, it wasn't so bad.. but as the sun sets and the crowd got larger and larger, and that the platform is REALLY starting to "FLOAT", i begun to show my "Drunkard Fist stance", which is walking unstable-ly around, topping up the food.. as i went back to the BBQ station, they were like asking : "Are you okay?" Am i okay? of course i'm not.. told all of you before.. I HAVE SEA SICK!! and you don't believe me.. fine.. plus no dinner.. or should i say.. only had a light breakfast for the whole entire day.. so that makes it worse.. but thank to be God, who helped me to control so that i don't vomit..

i have never see Sentosa Cove so lively before for the past 6 months.. but it was really crowded with dance, music, singing and feasting.. colourful lights shining around..

and i have JUST received news that i have to go work tomorrow, which is my off day.. because i have to relieve one of the chefs who just took a MC tomorrow.. and that the assistant Head chef don't really trust the trainee attracted to that departement.. just for your information, i'm a trainee too..

i will end my entry here..

ALL the best to all the teams that is in the Volvo Ocean Race - JIA YOU!
Race to the next stop - Qingdao

2009-01-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

Footprints in the Sand
Leona Lewis

Footprints In The Sand - Leona Lewis

You walked with me,
Footprints in the sand,
And helped me understand,
Where I'm going,

You walked with me,
When I was all alone,
With so much unknown,
Along the way,
Then I heard you say,

I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled with sorrow,
And despair, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

I see my life flash across the sky,
So many times have I been so afraid.
And just when I, have thought I lost my way,
You gave me strength to carry on,
That's when I heard you say,

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled
With sorrow and despair
And, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

When I'm with you,
Well I know you've been there,
And I can feel you when you say,

I promise you (you)
I'm always there
When your heart is filled (when your heart)
With sadness and despair (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend (need a friend)
You'll find my footprints in the sand. (I promise you)

Ohh. (I'm always there)

When your heart is full of
Sadness and despair, (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend. (I'll carry you)
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

Uhh mmhhh.

2009-01-15T22:31:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
i Don't know what you are expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware,
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

2009-01-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

I thought I lost you
when you ran away to try to find me
I thought i'd never see your sweet face again
I turned around and you were gone
and on and on the days went
I kept the moments that we were in
And i knew in my heart that you
would come back for me my friend
And now i got you
When i thought i lost you!

2009-01-12T21:39:00.003+08:00

the movie "Red Cliff 2" was really a good show, with very good effects, exploding, fighting scenes, and very nice propes such as lots of ships in ancient China design, and buildings.. it was based on the ancient history of China during the warring time, also normally known as the 3 Kingdoms..

and my modem is back to working condition!! so no more walking to Macs to use free wireless connection!! :D

friends come and go..
some stayed..
some went on with their life..
but to think of it..
all of us have our own life to carry out..
but let us not forget each other..
you know who you are..
because you're important..

2009-01-12T11:44:00.002+08:00

guess today was the only time that i really have the time to even blog.. since today was my off day for the new week.. and yesterday was the off day for last week.. so correct, you have guessed it correctly.. i had 2 off days back to back - Sunday and Monday.. so let me talk about the past week..

i never know that working in a canteen was such hard work.. and you have see and heard it correctly.. me, a trainee, working in the club's staff canteen.. and for those who have a staff canteen at their workplace, sometimes, we may just take the canteen aunties and uncles for granted.. in a sense that we might have requested for some stupid stuff such as : "Can i have the vegetables from the fish curry, but i don't want the fish?" or "Can i have more tou ya(beansprout) but not the salted fish?" etc.. well.. i have seen those coming for the past week.. i tell you.. those requests can be very irriating, especially when there are a lot of people behind the queue, waiting for their turn to get their hands on the food after a long(actually, not really long) hard morning, and for most people, without any breakfast in the morning.. so the pressure is there to serve them the food as soon as possible..

and then for some, they will come to the canteen and do "survey" for the rest of the gang in the office.. as in checking out the food without tasting and queueing.. just standing outside of the canteen and peeking through the glass window, seeing what is served and judge "visually".. and then handing up their reconnaissance report to the people back in the office.. or some, even worse, straight in your face, saying : "Why is the food like that??!!" etc.. so there are different kinds of people in the club.. but i still have to smile at them, making sure that they have enough food for everyone, and that their lunch would be a enjoyable one(i hope)..

then comes the Volvo Ocean Race.. you see it on the TV, advertising and even have a show about the journey that the sailors have went through.. and yes, it's at my workplace.. in case you don't know, i'm working at ONE degree 15 Marina Club, the club that is in charge on the race, the club that provided the docking place for the sailing boats.. and because of that, the sales department used this opportunity to "kill" the people in the kitchen.. let me explain..

as you all know, the economy isn't that good after the fall of the Lehman Brothers, and a few more banks in the US.. so sales have been really bad in the club.. and that includes the restaurant.. then came the race.. and because of that, the organisers from the race tend to have book conference rooms from the club.. but it was late to do so.. but our "CLEVER" sales department, despite of the last minute, accpeted the booking, and that includes all 3 meals, last minute.. so everything wasn't prepared.. and there.. the crazy running for ingredients and cooking starts.. making everybody crazy and angry.. so who's at fault? haiz..

and the soccer season starts in Evangel Family Church.. the yearly affair.. and this time, they have increased the number of matches from 5 games to 8 games! super cool!! but i don't really know whether i can play for Region A a not since ya.. the race.. haiz.. hope i can clear my off days on Saturdays..

the worse thing that happened at home was that my modem has broke down!! ARGH!! no internet, no Facebook, NO MSN!! SUCKS!! but now i'm using the wireless at Coffee Bean to write this long entry.. before the movie Red Cliff 2! heard from people that it is a very nice show, continue-ing from Part 1.. the show is about the warring time of the 3 Kingdoms from China..

okay.. i think i shall end here.. time to collect the ticket!
shall blog again later after the movie!!

tata!!

it's full moon again.. how lovely..
hope it will stay as it is..

2009-01-06T23:52:00.001+08:00

Hallelujah
Alexandra Burke

Alexandra Burke - Hallelujah.mp3 -

I heard there was a secret chord
That David played to pleased the lord
But you don’t really care for music do ya
It goes like this, the fourth the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing, hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah

Well, maybe there’s a God above
But all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at somebody who outdrew ya
And it’s not a cry that you hear at night
It’s not someone who’s seen the light
It’s a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Hallelujah(x12)

2009-01-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

sorry for the long absense.. super busy during the Christmas season and the few days before and after New Year Day.. so now, writing a summary of all the things that had happened..

I watched Twilight 2 times(ALICE!!)
I worked a total of 26 hours of OT in the month of December and the first week of the Janaury(TIRING..)
Watched Fireworks on New Year's Day after work(NICE!)
Slept only 3 hours after the fireworks' night and woke up and went to work, plus OT(SUPER TIRED!!)
Transferred to another department yesterday, to the chef that I don't really like(SUCKS!!)
Had a MC last Saturday and a Off Day on Sunday(SUPER COOL!)
Finally played basketball after a super long break(FUN!!)
Having sore muscles the next day(PAIN!!)
Work starts from 11am and ends at 7pm everyday for this week(COOL!)
Working in the cafeteria for this week(SUPER BORING!!)
Hoping that won't miss any service this week(PRAYING)
Haven't really open all the Christmas presents(SOBBING..)
Probably having another Sunday off this week(SUPER COOL!!!)

all that ends the summay for the past 3 weeks..

sleeping TIME!!

tata!!

2008-12-29T23:37:00.001+08:00

Flightless Bird, American Mouth
Iron & Wine
Twilight OST

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

2008-12-22T13:34:00.006+08:00

last Friday went to watch Twilight.. the movie is SUPER NICE!! where everybody was like wah-ing at Robert Pattinson aka Edward Cullen, i was like wah-ing at Alice Cullen aka Ashley Greene~! she's SO SUPER CUTE~~!! CUTIE!!

Alice Cullen~~!! CUTE!!

then later in the evening, there was the Hearts On Fire Christmas Celebration - Heroes, Meet Them This Christmas

the celebration was like a small gathering of all the super heroes from the TV series Heroes, plus Marvel and DC Comics, plus Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, plus X Men.. a small Hall of Frame for all the Heroes! super cool!!

oh ya.. i have changed back to Bella's Lullaby.. because it's nicer!! :D

back to baking cookies.. tata!!

2008-12-15T11:59:00.002+08:00

last Saturday went to get some material for Christmas presents.. but i'm short of one factor - time.. because starting from today, i have a really crazy schedule.. working 12 hours each day until Thursday, reaching home at 12 plus each night, missing G12 Christmas celebration.. kinda sucky but still have to go through it and fight the boredom that is being created at the restaurant..

On Sunday, i found out something REALLY INTERESTING from one of my fellow ushers about ladies.. haha!

today was really a BORING and TIRING day!! the whole day craving meat for guests.. not that it's boring to cut up meats, but it's the fact that there isn't much guests coming in.. as usual.. and i have to wear a santa hat!! it's kinda cute and furry!! haha!!

haha.. this is really a short entry.. because eyes are closing.. haha!!

good night!

2008-12-12T23:23:00.002+08:00

i'm here to introduce 2 songs that i like.. that are nice to me..

the first song: Emergency
by: Paramore

Emergency - Paramore

I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency

If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on

So are you listening?
So are you watching me?

If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on.

This is an emergency
So are you listening?

And I can't pretend that I don't see this

It's really not your fault
That no one cares to talk about it,
Talk about it

Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
(When it deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserve to be alive, alive

So you give up every chance you get
Just to feel new again

I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency

And you do your best to show me love,
but you don't know what love is.

So are you listening?
So are you watching me?

Well I can't pretend that I don't see this

It's really not your fault
That no one cares to talk about it,
Talk about it

Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
(When it deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserve to be alive, alive

These scars, they will not fade away.

No one cares to talk about it, talk about it

Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
(When it deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserve to be alive, alive

this song is really nice, especially the first part where the lead singer plays the piano piece!

the second song: Pressure
by: Paramore

Pressure - Paramore

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me

this 2 songs are "Live" from their concert.. that's why you can hear people screaming! AAAAAHHHHHHHH~~~!!!!

yesterday went to Bugis to find clothes for the HEROES event in church.. it's so hard to find the correct clothes and ideas are already running out in selecting the attire.. but before that, i went to Phine's Steakhouse that Sarah has recommended.. the portion was all right.. but the problem was that they gave me the wrong doneness fo the steak.. as i asked for medium, they gave me slightly off the medium, close to medium rare.. but other than that, the rest was okay!

today's message is to find a Lydia and Lazarus - rich and poor
you can be a generous giver.. and at the same time, be a gracious receiver..

next week will be a really really heratic week for me.. because i will be working like first 4 days of the week with OT, from 11am - 11pm.. and it's every day dring the 4 days.. tiring...

to LiveLoveLaugh:
it's not making the blog nosiy.. felt at times that whenever i need you all to be around, none of you is there.. not even a word of concern.. that's why i feel sometimes, very restless, and reluctant to answer.. thinking that asking out of duty..

Time to sleep!!
good night!!

i finally found you, my moon..
where have you been to?
finally back to your sky..

2008-12-10T00:21:00.003+08:00

my thought for today:
people only talk to me when they needed me..
some really concerned..
some.. just needed me to do things..

an advice:
don't take me for granted..
i may just disappear..

loneliness

2008-12-08T23:33:00.003+08:00

Pastor Geoff was the speaker for Sunday service.. and the message was really really good!! Seasons!
Here are the pointers:
1. No season lasts forever
2. The change of season is not a sign you are good or bad
3. Don't let the season you are in define you
4. Most seasons are followed by opposites
5. Build consistency regardless of the seasons
6. Learn from whatever seasons you are in
7. Prepare for the next season
8. Keep the right season in your heart regardless of the season out there
9. God is at work in every season

after the service was again.. RUSHING TO WORK!! and it was such a boring night to work.. no much customers coming in.. so talking and playing in the kitchen..

and today after work, went to watch BOLT, a cartoon.. the dog was CUTE!! should catch it if you like cartoon..

guess it's time to sleep..

good night!

2008-12-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

for the past few days of this week, it was already very tiring.. having afternoon shifts for the first 4 days of the week is already very torturing.. plus the effect of 'Bad Business', which means not much work to do except talking, playing music, and doing nothing in the kitchen.. and the time passed like ant clawing, super duper SLOW!! from 3pm to 11pm, it was really torturing..

i just want to thank God that He has opened doors for me to attend church services each week, be it Wednesday G12, Friday Hearts On Fire, or Sunday Service.. just for this week, i'm supposed to be scheduled to have my Off day on Tuesday, which means that i would be missing the Konquerors Conference in church for both days.. but somehow, by God's grace, they changed the schedule and changed my Off day to Friday! and that means that i only missed one day! and as for next week, i'm able to attend Wednesday's G12 due to last minute changes to my schedule, from afternoon shift to morning shift on Wednesday! and an Off day on Friday! how COOL is GOD!! :D

yesterday was the last day of the Konquerors Conference.. the speaker, Pastor Geoff (if i spelled correctly) is really FUNNY!! he can be a very good singer and actor! and his message was really interesting with his acting and singing! and the message was about facing and taking out your giants.. taking them out one by one.. very POWERFUL!!

then before the service, went to find costume at Bugis.. but all i see in the rental store wasn't what i expected.. they didn't really have a wide variety of costumes.. so kinda wasted trip..

and ya.. last night, had a very FUNNY and SWEET dream! didn't expect the content of the dream.. haha!!

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KYLE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

welcome to the '2' club!! hope you enjoyed your celebration with your family!! :D

i shall stop here!!
tata!!

when you think everything is back to normal..
actually,
it has never change..
from the bad side..

2008-12-01T08:35:00.004+08:00

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!

time for a summary for last week!!

Working in Butchery department was something that was fun and kinda challenging.. why is this so? because i was put into a my chef's shoes for this entire week again, as he went off for holiday with his family.. and i have to be transfered back to do his work for last week.. paperwork, making decisions and preparing meat cuts for functions, events.. exciting!! but all of those has ended last Saturday, as i was having off day on Sunday!! there may have some disagreements with some of the chefs there, but overall, that week of working was nice and fun.. and then on Saturday itself, i have so much free time(or should i say i was aways SUPER FREE!! haha!!) that i helped out in sending food to a yacht, and that yacht was my big boss's yacht!! after sending the food on the yacht, we were like playing on the yacht for a while, taking picture.. guess how much is the yacht??

...

....

...

IT'S 24 MILLION!!!! HOW ABOUT THAT?? haha!!

those are a few people that i work with..

then yesterday, went to church, MY OFF DAY!! the message was really good!! Choose God, and you Choose Life!! NICE!! after that, went to Bugis to do some costume research.. and when i got out of the MRT station, the sky was threating!! grey, going to rain.. just thank God that i reached to the shop before it rains, but.....

THE SHOP IS CLOSED!!!

so i don't want to stay there too long.. started to walk fast back to the MRT station.. but halfway, it started to pour like heavy.. haiz.. so no choice, run in the rain.. drenched... then went to Hougang to play soccer with Shawn, Joshua, Gabriel and Shawn's neighbours.. super fun, since i have not been running ever since my last IPPT... haha!! then went to eat at Cartel.. not that cheap and portion wise......... SMALL!!!!

got to know something from my friend about some promise that she has to keep.. SUPER UNREASONABLE!! from that person that set that promise.. and i don't blame my friend.. so i hope she will be fine..

JIA YOU FR YOUR INTERVIEW, MIDORI!!!

oh ya.. the music that is playing on the background is the NEW piano piece from Twilight.. Bella' lullaby.. not as good as the previous one.. but still nice!! enjoy!!

shall end here!!
time for BREAKFAST!!!

2008-11-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

hello people!!

this week for me, will be a more busy week.. given the fact that i have went back to my previous department for a week.. as my previous chef is taking his annual leave, he has requested me to go back and help out for him.. taking care of everything during the period that he's away.. and ya.. suppliers and paperwork.. but the good side is that.. I GOT MY FIRST SUNDAY OFF FOR THIS WEEK!! haha.. it's kinda rare to get an Sunday off.. so ya..

i also heard from others that is working there.. my previous normally don't request people from other departments to be taking care of his department.. so i'm kinda honoured that i was asked to take care of it for him.. pray that i don't mess it up..

and today was the FIRST time thati finished work at 4pm!! haha.. well.. nothing to do and my chef rquested for me to go home early.. so GO HOME LOR!!

today was also the first time i tried using ANKLE GUARD.. because of doctor requested me to use.. to aid healing of the ankle.. but the problem is that, it just numb my WHOLE FEET!! and it's super uncomfortable... and pain!!
and i think that my ankle is BROKEN.. I THINK ONLY!!! haha!! because so long and my ankle hasn't recovered.. so ya..

kinda do something forbidden just now.. playing basketball with an sprained and "maybe BROKEN" ankle.. but that's after quarrelling with my brother.. STUPID!!

though i felt pain during the games, but that makes me play hard.. the more pain it is, the hard i ran and play.. kinda SICK IN THE HEAD!! but it was fun..

guess i will stop here..

tata!!

2008-11-21T00:16:00.003+08:00

good morning people.. it's 12.16 in the morning of 21/11/2008

just to make a short entry of Thursday..

it was my off day.. so no work.. as for the the beginning of the week, there was nothing much to write about because nothing special happen.. just work and lazing around in the resaurant.. really bad business..

woke up kinda early for a off day.. started with wash-up(of course!!), then reading the bible.. and then gaming for like 4 hours.. oh ya.. i woke up at 6.45 AM.. very crazy i know..

then in the afternoon, went to Yishun for a doctor review for my ankle.. to update all of you about my ankle: my ankle is now slightly swollen(thank God), but patches of blue black has formed at the ankle area and near the base of the feet.. the whole stretch.. continue to pray for me.. that my ankle will recover fast.. and thank you for all the concern that all of you have given to me.. i'm very grateful.. thank you so so much..

after the review, went to my Yi Ma's place at Jurong East(it's far, but i love travelling).. it's been a long time since i stepped into her house.. tell you all a story later.. then played with my niece and nephew until to the point that he wanted to go home with me.. haha.. oh ya.. my niece's name is Xin Xin, my nephew's name is Bian Bian(very easy to remember).. then had my dinner at her place.. really long time..

here's the story.. my Yi Ma's place was like my second home to me when i was like really younger, because i was living near her place(yes.. i used to live in Jurong) and that my parents were working.. so every morning, i would be put into her care.. and because i was like so accustomed to staying with her, i didn't even want to go home every night, to a point that i would cry non stop... so you can say that i'm very close to my Yi Ma and her family..

for today, i have been thinking....
why do i have to be troubled with all the problems in life?
why do i have to face the burdens alone?
when i have God..
so from now on..
i don't really care whether how people think and see..
don't really care whether any people care..
as long as it's right..
in God's sight..
and something that is right..
doesn't matter whether some treated me as friend..
i'm very grateful for the few friends that i have..
life still goes on..
and i will be smiling..
no more frowning..
but just SMILE!!
(thank you, Shawn, for your words)

when you can live forever,

what do you live for?

i will live for God..

and will fight for the existence of the people i love..

(just a random observation)

what a moonless night..

i miss it..

2008-11-16T21:16:00.002+08:00

BOO!!!

didn't go to work today.. because of my SWOLLEN ankle.. so took MC.. and went to the chinese physician.. shall talk about the experience...

that place was kinda freaky with lots of medicine bottles around on the shelves.. with the smell of chinese herbs.. STINK!! then when it's my turn, i was like kinda scared that the doctor will like twist and turn my ankle.. but to my surprise, the doctor did not twist and turn my ankle, instead, just massage and then put a bit.. and the doctor is a female doctor!! so ya.. gentle.... haha!! but well.. it's still feeling pain.. but better now..

rested for the whole afternoon.. but still tired..

nothing much happened after that..

shall end here..

bye bye!!

oh ya.. i have bought my last book of my collection - Ecilpse!! so SERIES COMPLETED!!

2008-11-15T21:09:00.003+08:00

hey people..

i'm super SICK, super SICK!! as in my health... and now, even after the whole day, i'm still sick and WEAK!! don't know what's wrong with me..

i'm like super tired.. because i slept at like 1 plus, after working afternoon shift until 11pm.. and reaching home at 12.30am.. then in the middle of the night, i was like having NIGHTMARES!! YES!! NIGHTMARES!! and what are they about? promise not to laugh.. they were about making salads!! orders and orders of salads!! until i'm very scared!! keep waking up and then fell asleep and then woke up, having the same nightmare again.. haiz.. i thought i asked you not to laugh.... :'(

then i went to my Big Brother's housewarming.. didn't get any picture because i was like busy playing with his son.. he is SO CUTE!! he's only like a year plus.. and super adorable!!

went to outreach after that.. it was okay.. then played basketball... and then guess what?? I GOT A SPRAIN AT THE ANKLE!! AGAIN!!! this time, the pain was like really killing, until at that point of time, i was going to cry... but i just bear the pain and.. ya.. walked home...

i'm so going to visit my Yi Ma, who is my Big Brother's mum.. looks like we have a lot to talk about ever since we last talked..

hope that my ankle will feel better tomorrow, plus my sickness.. haiz...

will end here..

tata!!

oh ya.. i made a bookmark from the presents that 2 groups of people gave me.. they know who they are...

2008-11-12T23:13:00.004+08:00

hey...

time to blog..

usually tomorrow will be my OFF day.. but beause i have to attend a house warming of my "Big" brother, so i changed it to Saturday.. and that's why i'm trying to make this entry short..

at work:

working nowadays, is boring.. given the fact that the economic is so bad, we hardly have ny business.. but nonetheless, i have learnt a number of salads and also, how to cook fried rice in a wok..

Prawn Salad

Ham in Roll

Caprise Salad(Sliced Tomato and Mozzarella)

Antipasto Salad(Grilled vegetables)

Alaska King Crab Salad

tomorrow i will be buying the last book that i'm short from the Twilight Series!! and it's going to be a complete series!!

and i feel that i'm becoming more and more less-tolerant to sunlight.. not the heat.. but the sunlight.. and more and more liking moonlight.. okay.. i sound SUPER WIERD and FREAKY~!

and i'm so going to MISS the Region C event on Friday.. because i have to work like in the afternoon.. 3pm - 11pm... sad.. :'(

anyway, All the Best, Region C!

think i'm going to end here..

good nights!!

what are friends?

what are friends for?

what do friends mean to you?

tell me..

someone tell me~!

can i have some peace and quiet?

i neeed my REST!!

i have been tolerated all the quarreling

for a long time..

and i cannot take it anymore!

throwing things around..

think it's fun??

i hate this family......

2008-11-12T22:44:00.003+08:00

Scream
Zac Efron
High School Musical 3 Senior Year

Scream - Zac Efron

The day your door is closed,
The echo's fill your soul.
They won't say which way to go,
Just trust your heart.

To find what you're here for,
Open another door.
But I'm not sure anymore.
It's just so hard.

The voices in my head,
Tell me they know best!
Got me on the edge,
They're pushin', pushin',
They're pushin'

I know they got a plan,
But the balls in my hands!
This time it's man-to-man,
I'm drivin', fightin', it's time too.

Whole worlds upside down,
It's spinin' faster
What do I do now? without you!

{Chorus:}
I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
[Scream Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
I'm kickin' down the walls.
I gotta make 'em fall!
Just break through them all!
I'm pushin', crashin', I'm gonna
Fight to find myself,
Me and no one else!
Which way I get down, I'm searchin',
Searchin', can't find a
Road that I should take,
I should, tomorrow left us!
It'slike nothing works without you!

{Chorus:}
I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!

Yeah the clocks, running down,
hear the crowd gettin' loud!
I'm consumed by the sound!
Is it hurt? Is it love?
Can the music ever be enough?
Gotta work it out, gotta work it out!
You can do it, you can do it!

{Chorus:}
I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!

I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. I want my own thing!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
All Right
~Ahhhhh!~

that's how i feel these days...

confused..

don't know where to go..

can someone tell me??

2008-11-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

hello....

to continue from last Thursday...

in the end.. i did changed my mind of rotting at Changi Airport.. because Shawn has asked me to go play soccer.. so ya.. time for some exercise.. and during playing soccer, a random thought came in.. Swimming!! so went swimming after soccer at Shawn's place, with Shawn(of course), Luke and Joshua.. until like 9 plus.. the funny thing was that we talked about a lot of things.. haha..

P.S. to Shawn: you better keep everything to yourself..

then on Friday, didn't really have much business in the restaurant.. business was really bad.. and after that went to church for service.. the message was cool!! finding a Zacchaeus in life.. encouraging and helping..

and after the service was a drama.. during the service, Sarah, my friend, texted me, asking me to lend her my SUPER DUPER BIG haversack.. and guess what? I HAD IT WITH ME because i was like using it yesterday.. so after service i somehow rushed to Yew Tee to pass her the bag.. and then went back to Tampines to join Virnice, Jasmine and Michelle Gan for supper..

so Sarah.. if you're reading this, you should THANK GOD that i obeyed God to bring the bag.. because the bag is like super big for me to bring it to work with nothing much in it.. and i was like thinking why God asked me to bring such a big bag..

hmmm..
think i'm going to stop here..

tata!!

i have been thinking..

what if i disappear?

what will happen?

will things be the same as before?

or everything will change?

2008-11-06T10:17:00.003+08:00

hey people..

today is my OFF day.. and guess where am i now?

haha.. i'm in like Changi Airport T3, having breakfast at Macs.. kinda ordered like $10 worth of food and drinks.. haha!! Big eater..

and i think T3 Macs will be my favourite hangout place for the time being..

it's like super bored having a OFF day on a weekday, when everybody that you know are like working and having school, or.. sleeping late, and busy with their own stuff.. hmmm.. to think of it, only last week's OFF days are spent with people.. other than that, all of them are spent alone.. BORING!!

hmmm.. plans for today?? actually, i never think of it.. rotting at Airport with my PSP, New Moon, Newspaper and laptop?? and until my laptop runs out of battery?? haha!! think that's the plan for now.. unless i can find something to do and change my mind.. haha!!

i shall end for now..
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oh ya.. a group of kids (and i really mean kids) just came into Macs and made the whole place from a quiet "library" to a noisy "market" haha!! and it was fun to hear them talk!! KIDS TALK!!

bye for NOW!!

2008-11-05T23:04:00.003+08:00

hey people!!

time to blog..

first and foremost.. Congrats to Barack Obama to becoming the Elected President of the United States and also.. the First Black President of the United States!

hmmm.. i don't know why i wrote about the elections.. haha!! just for your information..

today was super boring at work.. or should i say.. it's been 3 days of BOREDOM at work.. because business was so sO SO bad that we hardly have guests and customers coming in for lunch.. so nothing much to do during lunch time.. so i was like watching TV that is in the restaurant (showing CNN, the US Election) most of the time.. and it's like CNN was like showing the US Election for the whole day.. and for the poor reporters who are reporting live, they were like still up at 2.35AM(in US)!! GOSH!! hope that they have an off day or something after all those reports..

tomorrow will be my OFF day again.. another day of Nothing-To-Do-Ness.. haiz.. thinking of going to Airport to eat breakfast.. then stay there until i rot.. haha!!

another salad that i made...

Ceasar Salad! i made it!! :D

got to go now~

tatA!!

2008-11-03T21:11:00.004+08:00

hey peeps..

today's entry will be photos..

Last G12 for Tao Liang:

too much FOOD!!!

Specially Made and Bought for Tao Liang

Work:

Salad for the Menu

Post Birthday Ice Cream Feast:

At Island Creamery with Sarah!

random picture on the bridge using timer

Being dao!

Being Shy!

Being Random!

Posing in Front of Christmas tree

Super Dark picture.......

Promoting Oranges and FREE FUEL!!

being Sporty!

Acting CUTE!!

Bored... Just KIDDING!!

It's like catching lightning

The chances of finding someone like you

It's one in a million

The chances of feeling the way we do

And with every step together

We just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)

Can I have this dance

2008-11-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

Hey people!!

time to blog again for today!!

let's start from Thursday..

"Happy Birthday" to me! 30/10 was my birthday.. and it was also the death anniversary of my grandmother.. so people, that's why i cancelled the dinner.. but i'm very glad and happy for the wishes that all of you have sent to me!! THANK YOU!! YOU GUYS AND LADIES ROCKS!!

went to have lunch with Joyce and Eleanor.. and that we went for a movie.. High School Musical 3 : Senior Year!! the movie was nice.. just some parts were very 'not link'.. and a lot of songs.. but the songs are VERY NICE!! especially "Can I Have This Dance"..

Can I Have This Dance

then today:

went for heart.sports.. after so long not playing basketball, i find it very difficult to shoot and even do a lay up.. but Thank and Praise God that He helped me to get it all back! :D this time, Region A didn't really lose badly.. WE GOT THIRD FOR BASKETBALL!!

then after that, went to eat at Adam's Road Food Centre.. and of course, not missing the Famous Prawn Noodles! Super Nice!! sorry.. no picture of that because too hungry to take any..

after that, met my friend for ICE CREAM!! at island creamery,which is just opposite the Adam's Road Food Centre.. we stayed there for quite a while, eating ice creams and talking.. and of course, not missing the CRAPPING and TAKING OF PICTURES!! we took like practically everything that we see and everywhere.. haha.. and like a lot of pictures!! will post them up once i got my hand on them..

i think i owe you guys a lot of photos.. just be patient.. haha!! :D

and for next week:

i will be making a lot of salads!! GREEN!!!

i just want to say to the people who gives me presents:

to Auntie Candy: Thank you for your Love Offering! it just came at the right time! Thank you! may God bless you!!

to Joyce and Eleanor: Thank you for the lunch and the movie! and also for the friendship that we had.. and your time.. crapping with me.. haha!! and YOUR CHOCOLATES!! i don't have the feeling to eat them.. can i keep them?? HAHA!!

to my friend, Sarah: Thank you for your company and your presents! they are very nice and CUTE!! crapping with you was seriously SUPER FUN!! can just take TONS OF PICTURES TOGETHER!! haha!! and remember to send me the photos!!

shall stop here!!

will post the photos up as soon as possible..

tata!

2008-11-01T09:36:00.002+08:00

hey people!!

there will a series of posts today!!
and this will be the first post of the day!

All the Twilight Trailers!!

Trailer #1

Trailer #2

Trailer #3

The move will start in another month's time!
Remember 18 Dec! and it's comfirmed!!

- End of First Post -

2008-10-28T10:20:00.002+08:00

hey people!

time to blog again..

here's a summary of the past week:

- it's so nice to see Ferrari cars coming to my workplace.. and not only that, they were just IN FRONT OF ME! and and not only that, saw them in 2 nights.. red and yellow, same model.. haiz.. so near, yet so so so far...

- last Saturday baked some cookies for everyone.. they are really hard, because i think i mixed them too much.. thus the texture.. thank you everyone, for your feedbacks! and i will improve somemore..

- and Jan(my assistant G12 leader).. you haven't give me the photos... :D

- so sorry that i can't send Tao Liang and Jan(another one) off.. they flew to Canada last night.. hope they like the cookies(see Point 2)..

- went to CHURCH on Sunday! felt so good to be back to church.. the worship and doing ushering.. plus the sermon by Pastor Marion.. and the presence of God.. just felt so goooood~

- was down with FLU and slight SORE THROAT, plus COUGH.. gahhh.. sick..

- End Of Summary -

this week will be the shortest week.. because...

Monday 10 - 6 - 10(OT)

Tuesday P.H. Off (IPPT)

Wednesday 10 - 10 (spilt)

Thursday Off (birthday)

Friday 10 - 6 - 9(OT)

Saturday P.H. Off (Heart.Sports plus dinner)

Sunday 3 - 11

as you can see my schedule, working for 4 days only..and all the off days are broken up..

and today, taking IPPT test later.. kinda thinking that i can't pass it.. HAHA!! but still have to take it and clear it.. so ya.. try to pass it.. haha.. because if i pass the first time, i will get incentive of $100 from the army.. so try lor.. haha..

i'm so going to watch High School Musical 3 : Senior Year on Thursday.. not really the movie on the first slot of my "Movie List"(first is Twilight!!), but it sounds nice!! and really cool..

shall stop blog now.. haha...

tatA!!

2 more days!

happy birthday!

2008-10-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

hey people!!

today was my off day.. and i have done something meaningful..

woke up late today.. and then went to meet Shawn for lunch at Hougang Mall Cafe Cartel.. ordered like a lot of food.. then after that, went to his place to give him tuition on Geography and Phyisc.. can see that he's stressing up.. haha..

to Shawn:
pray and study hard. God can do the impossible when you pray and focus.. study hard!!

yesterday night was the last G12 for Tao Liang as he and Jan are flying to Canada on Monday night.. so last night we had a lot of food for fellowship(and i really mean A LOT).. haha.. will post up the pictures.. and Jolene and Roysten(if i didn't spell wrongly) are joining Pasir Ris 3.. our G12 family is going bigger!! haha..

shall end here..

tata!!

7 more days to the day..

that God created me..

and also the day of an anniversary..

2008-10-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

hey people...

time to blog a bit...

last Thursday was my CRAPPY G12 leader, Tao Liang's and Jan's wedding.. Congratations to both of them!! May God bless them richly in their marriage and the new life in Canada!
went for their wedding dinner and everything was very nicely done up! didn't get to take any pictures(that's so not me..) anyway, met up with Virnice, Gabriel Ling and Midori before the dinner.. and when they were to give their thanks to everybody, it was a touching moment.. and Tao Liang tried to pull a joke about singing.. but in the end, that joke turned back to him! haha~! anyway, this Wednesday, that joke will RELIVE! haha!!

i'm so going to miss my CRAPPY G12 leader.. when he leaves for Cananda on the 27th of Oct..

working in the restaurant department is a VERY STRESSFUL.. not because of the problematic orders and overloaded with orders.. but because of the different working styles in the kitchen.. normally, in a working place, there's bound to have maximum 2 different styles, the Boss and the assistant manager.. but i have faced with 3 different working styles in ONE PLACE!! GOSH~!! it's so difficult to adapt.. and i also feel that i don't belong to the restaurant.. because it's like during service time(lunch and dinner service time), i will be the only one wondering about in and out of the kitchen, doing nothing.. and after the service time, while others are preparing for the ingredients, i will be always the ONLY one doing nothing.. haiz.. feel very VERY "extra"...

and the song "Belle's Lullaby" makes me think back of the happy moments.. friends that i used to be close with, and that i have lost them.. also makes me lose myself during the song, thinking.. it's a very sweet and gentle song.. and i'm drunk in it..

will blog again SOON!!

11 more days to my Big Day..

and i'm not a bit excited at all..

have i lost my emotions again? or just slow to feel??

i hope it is the second option..

2008-10-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

introducing song..............

this song is from the Soundtck of the upcoming movie, the movie that I'm crazy for right now.. Twilight!

the song is by Paramore.. the song is "Decode"

Decode - Paramore

How can I decide what’s right
When you’re clouding up my mind
I can’t win your losing fight
All the time

No cover ever over what's mine
When you’re always taking sides
But you won’t take away my pride
No not this time, not this time

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
And how did we get here
Well, I think I know how

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I cant see

What kind of man that you are
If you’re a man at all
Well I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming I love you so)
On my own
(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well (yeah)
How did we get here
Well, I think I know how

Do you see what we’ve done
We’re gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we’ve done
We’re gonna make such fools of ourselves

(Yeah yeah)

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well (yeah, yeah)
Well, how did we get here
When I used to know you so well
I think I know
I think I know

There is something
I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

2008-10-14T22:02:00.002+08:00

helloooo~

okay.. today isn't my OFF day.. because i have CHANGED to another department, which is the RESTAURANT side.. so more of cooking.. will tell more about it..

as you can see, i have changed my "wishlist" section.. because the previous list has most of them fulfilled.. Praise God for his providence!~! so now, i have listed out another list, plus the previously haven't fulfill wishes.. and this time, it will be difficult.. DIFFICULT!!

and i want to Thank and Praise God!! because i have transferred to another department, i have requested to work at an afternoon shift on Sunday, so this way, i won't miss church service!! Whoo ohh!! Church!!

and now that i'm in the restaurant, i have my "own stall", selling roasted items!! haha.. actually, in the menu, there are roasted items such as roasted chicken, duck and pork, as well as, Hainaness chicken rice.. so i'm supposed to cut(again? haiz..) the items behind a stall, something like the stalls that you see in coffeeshops.. so i "own a stall".. haha..

and last Saturday, i bought Twilight, the first book of the Twilight Series.. since the movie is schduled to show in Dec, i have decided to recap the beginning of the story first.. and that i want to collect the whole series!! :D

and i felt so good after playing soccer on last Sunday at the field near Shawn's place.. never knew that there is soccer to play on Sundays until last Sunday..

haha.. think i will stop here..
will blog soon!!

tata!!!!

2008-10-08T22:47:00.003+08:00

hey people!!

didn't blog yesterday.. so do it today..

oh ya.. first thing first.. the piano piece that you're hearing right now is called Bella's Lullaby, played by Edward Cullen.. it's played when..... hmmmmm.. i think i shouldn't spoilt the moive.. haha..

yesterday, booked for my IPPT.. in case you don't know what's that, it's something like NAFA test, with chin-up, shuttle run, sit down, standing broad jump, and 2.4run.. and i booked it 2 days before my BIG day.. hope i pass it!!

and i made ravioli yesterday.. kinda failed.. all of them kinda mashed up.. and the sauce overpowered the ravioli itself.. but the taste was good and nice.. shall post up the pictures tomorrow..

and also.. changed my blogskin(so obvious right?) with Edward and Bella on the background, it's part of the movie Twilight poster.. don't be fooled by the date on the background.. that's not the release date of the movie in Singapore.. for Singapore, it's on the 18th of Dec.. Remember!! 18th of Dec!!

and also.. i found out that the song list of the movie Twilight OST.. and i have already have most of them.. VERY NICE!!

shall stop here..
sleeping time!!
goodnights!!

Lord..

Show me what is between You and me?

What is my addiction?

What is my shortcoming?

Show me Lord..

Show me..

Who is my Nathan?

Please...

2008-10-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

hey people

another song to introduce..

Miss Invisible
Marie Digby

miss invisible - Marie Digby

Theres a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

this song lets me think... sometimes, we are like this girl, sitting alone, when we are at an unfamiliar environment.. but after a while, we get very familiar with the things around and then we become the group of people that tease the newcomer who sits alone, forgetting how we felt in the beginning when we are being teased as a newcomer..

how about being the person, the boy who sits with the newcomer instead, welcoming?

2008-10-02T17:57:00.003+08:00

i feel very tired.. but after a long and good sleep last night, i felt better.. :)

for the past few days, i have been eating a lot.. including today.. having this sudden craving of brownies.. haha..

but i was in a very tight budget(though i have just received my pay and a "present" from the government), so i'm looking for substitute.. haha.. let me teach you..

Ingredients:

1. "Fake brownies" aka Sara Chocolate Pound Cake

2.Ben and Jerry Vanilla Ice cream

3.Chocolate Syrup

and there you have it!!

"Brownie" topped with Ice Cream, drizzled with Chocolate Syrup

oh ya..

F1 Singapore is SO exciting!! though i watched it on the TV.. poor Ferrari and their drivers, Felipe Massa and Kimi Raikkonen.. one ended with the second last place, which he started the race with the 1st grid position, and the other, ended the race with a crash with 3 more laps to go.. plus a maddening confusion with the semi automatic release at the pit stop.. in the end, no points for Ferrari.. but a blessing in disguise for Fernando Alsono!! he won the race!!

and i have bought a Lego of Ferrari F43o!! saw it in Toys "R" Us at Habourfront Vivocity.. and on last Saturday, bought it!! so strike off the "Lego Set" from the wishlist..

That's the Lego Ferrari F430!! erm... the background is my bed.. it's real messy.. i mean the whole room... :D

and last Tuesday, went to an optician to get my lens done.. and Praise God! a slight drop of degree in my right eye!! that means my eyesight is getting better.. so.. getting the lens next week!!

i really miss going Church on Sundays.. miss the sermons and ushing people into the Promise.. Hope i can go back soon........ :'(

i think i have been watching and reading too much of love stories.. until that i want to fall in love again.. don't know whether i'm ready for it.. haiz.. dreaming again.....

shall stop here!!

blogging again SooooN!!

TaTa!!!

2008-09-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

the song "Slow Fade" by Casting Crowns is so meaningful..

Luke 11:34
"Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness."

went to eat at Bugis, where my friend is working at.. it's like a small eating place, that serves western food like in fine dining resturant such as lamb cutlets and salmon.. and i also found out that the chef that is in the kitchen is a former Shatec trainer who used to oversee my class at the school's training hotel.. well.. he don't know me, so didn't recognise me.. i ate the lamb cutlet.. it tasted nice with the sauce and the mashed potato was nice.. sorry that i don't have any picture to show because i was like super hungry and then forgotten to take any of it.. :D

But i can say is that.. the food there is nice and tasty.. just that the temperature is rather warm as there isn't much seats in the premise and have to sit outside..

shall stop here..

tata!!

God..

Help me..

Not to fade away from you..

2008-09-23T17:12:00.002+08:00

i'm so excited for the F1 race in Singapore!! i'm so going to catch it.. but too bad that i don't have the tickets to the seats.. only a TV to watch "Live" at home.. but to think of it, not so bad..

it's going to be a history making for Singapore.. because it's the first time that we have a F1 race here in this small island.. and also.. the first time for the F1 to have a night race.. So COOL!!! Friday will be the warming up for the cars, Saturday is the Qualifying Rounds, and THE MAIN DAY!! Sunday 7.30pm!! The race will start!! Whoo-- OH!!!!

guess what? i'm down with flu again.. haiz.. it seems like this flu virus loves me so much that it doesn't want to go away... haha.. please pray for me..

people never crumble in a day...

2008-09-23T17:04:00.002+08:00

hey people!!

time to blog again..

Introduce you to a nice song. It's by Casting Crowns

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

2008-09-16T11:14:00.003+08:00

Hey people!!

As you may have guessed right, today IS my "weekend" again.. So to make it more meaningful(a bit), I will show you my favourite car - the car that I want!!

The Ferrari F430 Spider

But first, watch this video for some appretizer of the car

This car has maximum speed of 360km/h, with a very excellent accelerating from 0 to 100km/h in 4.1 seconds!! Many of you may wonder.. Why do you want to have a car that can go so fast but in Singapore, you can't even go so fast? Well, it's the function that the car offers..

Since young, I have a dream of driving a Formula One(F1) car, and the Ferrari F430 Spider is so close to the F1 racing car, with the changing of gears like the normal F1 car! And also, the car also provides with the different types of differential gearbox. It means that I can use the car as a normal car, a sports car, a racing car, or a car that you see in Intial D, those that can DRIFT like nobody' business..

-Why can the car go so fast?
Because the Ferrari F430 Spider uses the technology from the normal F1 car, using V8 engine. Plus, at the sides of the car, there are openings that allow cold air to flow into the engine, making the car go fast.

What is a V8 engine?
In simple terms, the engine is in V-shaped and with 4 pistons cylinders each side, making it a total of 8 pistons. And the engine is at the back, not the usual front.

So that is all I can describe.. The rest you have to experience it..

Oh ya.. The price of the car is $222,000.. Kinda expensive.. But it's worth it for a car like that!! :D

Ferrari F430 Spider - My Dream Car

2008-09-13T00:12:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!!

today was the day that my second brother went in the Army.. hope he will be doing fine in the Army.. and that nothing will happen to him.. also heard that he went to the same company as i went to during my BMT!! haha.. maybe... he will be having the same route as me throughout the whole 2 years.. haha..

talking about Army, makes me think about the army days for me again.. don't know why do i keep thinking of those tough training, sweaty runs, nasty mosquite bites, cold forest air, dirty rifle cleaning, but close bonding among each other.. miss those days.. it's been a long time.... hmmm... not a long time, because my ex-campmates and i have NEVER have any gathering ever since the day that we collected our PINK IC and shouted "ORD LOR" at our top of our lungs.. one of them tried to organise, but some of them cannot make it.. so in the end, it's cancelled.. haiz.. but MUST have a gathering.. miss the bonding.. and crapping together..

think i will post until here..
time to sleep..
good night everybody!!

tAtA

God,

I pray that I will be able to hear your voice..

the Voice of the Holy Spirit..

that still and gentle assurance in my heart..

that tells of my future and your ways..

fill me with your Spirit once again..

guide me through this life..

In Jesus' wonderful name I ask and I pray..

Amen

2008-09-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

today's message from Pastor Chui was very powerful during Hearts On Fire..

The Voice Of the Flesh

The Voice Of the Holy Spirit

Romans 7:18-19
"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desie to do what is good but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do - this I keep on doing"

- To be carnally(flesh) minded is death but to be spiritually minded is life and peace

- The voice of the flesh will always tell use to go through the simple and easy - the wide gate

- Whereas, the voice of the Holy Spirit will guide us through the hard and difficult - the narrow gate

The Narrow and Wide Gates
Matthew 7:13-14
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow is the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."

The voice of the Flesh is dangerous, because it tells us of our desires and what we want..

But the voice of the Holy Spirit is the truth, because it tells us of what the Father has planned for us, and the words that the Holy Spirit says comes from the Father.

-How do we know whether the voice is from the Holy Spirit?
-The voice of the Holy Spirit is a silent and still voice that speaks to our heart, a voice that brings peace to us.
-It also gives us a percieve and a knowing to the things that is going to happen, that is, our future.

2008-09-10T16:08:00.002+08:00

hey people..

today is like super boring..

went to collect my result slip from my school.. and i have a GPA of 3.51!! kinda high.. just want to thank God for the result.. :)

then after that, went to the Round Market at Tampines, to get my craving, which is CENTURY EGG PORRIDGE.. have been having that craving for like 2 weeks.. looking for it but cannot find.. BUT I FOUND IT TODAY!! that's nice..

then after that, went home to sleep until like now.. kinda pig..

later going off for Family, Faith, Food and Fun night at church..

signing off

Tata

2008-09-07T18:55:00.002+08:00

hey people!!

a summary of the past week...

i have been a "head" chef in my department.. because my chef went for a holiday.. so good.. so i was left with all the work to do.. and with honour to work with my Executive Sous Chef helping me.. anyway, my department is only me and my chef, 2 people.. and my Executive Sous Chef don't really know what is going on in my department.. so i have to like guide him along.. so double job.. but praise and thank God that tomorrow is the LAST DAY!! WHOA OH!!

missed the final of the Ocean League Basketball.. heard that they lost the match... but WELL DONE TO EVERYBODY!! at least they had some experience about the league and that they can improve from it..

i have planned to go Australia NEXT YEAR!! so it's time to really save up!

Tracy Da Jie and Jia Le went back to Austria this morning.. sob sob.. didn't really have the time to fellowship with Da Jie.. but last night went out with them with Dixon, Jia Yen and Wenyi.. had a nice time..

decided to have a simple meal on my birthday.. not really a celebration.. with some friends..

i miss going to church on Sundays.. miss the worship.. miss being an usher.. and especially miss the sermons..

i'm going to collect my transcript aka my result slip from school on Wednesday!! have been waiting for this day.. to see how well or how bad did i do for my exams.. haha..

guess that's all for this week.. haha..

TAta!!

2008-09-03T16:17:00.003+08:00

Dear Friend .mp3 - Marie Digby

This is another classic song from Marie Digby

You may be wondering.. "Who is this Marie Digby?" She is the girl that sings and records her own videos and upload them onto Youtube, and now she is a real singer, having an album under her belt..

This song - Dear Friend - talks about a friend of hers, whom she did everything together, just vanished one day.. Without a phone call, and not even her whereabours..

Lyrics
Dear friend I haven't heard from you in ages
I wonder how you're making out
Last time we talked i felt the space growing
between us
I didn't think you'd go so far
Tell me how could you just vanish
Without giving me any reasons
What were you thinking
And does this all make sense to you?

It's hard when you dont say anything
When I gave you everything
And still you slip right through my fingers
It's hard when you dont say anything
Is this how you finish things?
Because to me, this doesn't feel like the end.. Dear friend

It's not like me to put my trust in somebody
But to you i gave it all
And if you'd asked me i would soften all your falls
But now it's me who's stumbling

Tell me how could you just vanish
Without giving me any reasons
What were you thinking?
And does this all make sense to you?

It's hard when you dont say anything
When I gave you everything
And still you slip right through my fingers
It's hard when you don't say anything
Is this how you finish things
Cause to me this doesn't feel like the end... Dear friend..

Enjoy..

2008-08-29T23:49:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!!

something to make your funny bones laugh!!

Muttons At Midnight! - What you missed : Justin & Vernon sing about what might happen to you if you forget a Valentine gift, decipher the meaning to the songs "Youre Beautiful" & "The Reason"... - Mediacorp Radio

this is a podcast from Mediacorp Radio 98.7 FM Muttons At Midnight.. super FUNNY!!

enjoy!!

2008-08-24T19:49:00.002+08:00

the past week was been a more relaxed week.. and that more time to rest.. and going home early everyday..

and also, in my mind for the past week has been thinking about quite a fair amount of things.. as what Pastor Dale has shared on last Friday in Hearts On Fire, when we stop thinking, we will not function well, and that Thinking is God given ability..

working in a F&B outlet, it seems fun and enjoyable when you look at the outside.. but when you are the one working, it is a totally different situation.. everybody smiling when looking at the outside, backstabbing and hatred on the inside.. oh ya.. the backstabbing and hatred that i was referring to is not those that was seen in the office.. it's worse..

i was confused that i suddenly thought of going back to the engineering line.. really.. i don't know what to do now..

last Friday, something happened to my family, that was very funny.. still remember that in the papers, they reported about the calls that strangers made to ask for ransome, saying that your child is being kidnapped or beaten up? yup.. as you might have guessed it, it happened to my mum.. but why i said it was very funny? because my mum didn't even believe in the first place.. and i thank God for His wisdom upon her.. the first words that the stranger speaked to my mum were already not the way that me and my brothers' way of speech!! haha.. both me and my mum were like laughing when we discussed it.. and the stranger who called was a kid!!

yesterday was Heart.Sports.. well.. we lost the match, without MUCH help from the grown ups.. so ya.. expected anyway.. but we gave them a good fight.. and we enjoyed it..

as for today, the weather is really bad, that it rained like the whole day.. plus i was like watching tv from like 12 in the afternoon to like close to 5.. oh ya.. by the way, i was working today.. so you can imagine how "nothing to do" i am on Sundays..

and i have decided to go Australia next year.. so..

Time to SAVE UP for the TRIP!!

i shall end end here..

tata~~

2008-08-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

This is Me
Camp Rock OST
Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Desert Song
Hillsong

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

2008-08-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

i feel very terrible..

why is all this happening again?

i feel so lonely and sad..

stressed up and tired..

very tired..

Lord.. where are you?

i need your strength..

your wisdom to go through all these..

Lord.. where are you..

Lord.. where are you.......

2008-08-16T10:25:00.011+08:00

hi people!! time to do some blogging..

oh ya.. that video was from the National Day Parade itself.. took it "Live" from the side of the river..

for the past few days, it has been really a down and hectic week for me.. given the fact that my last off day was last week Tuesday.. and today is my off day.. a gap of 11 days.. plus a lot of functions and events to prepare, making my speed of preaparation increase, and tire myself in the process.. super tired.. and battling myself whether to go for the basketball match today..

i don't know why when people have high status, they tend to THROW their authority around.. like they are the KINGS and critcise people whenever and anyway they like.. because it happened to me.. it's like a very long story.. but to cut it short, it's something that i didn't even do, plus i have a witness.. but that person just blamed me for that.. and when the truth is ALL OUT, and it's really not my fault, NOT a word of sorry was heard.. oh ya.. that incident happened in the kitchen.. so ya..

and Michael Phelps just won his 7th GOLD medal!! with a difference of 1 SECOND from the next person, who was the previous Olympics Record Holder! and his timing is the New Olympics Record!! 7 down, 1 more to go!!

time to go think whether to go or not..

tata!!

2008-08-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

Hi people!!

blog a little bit..

for the past 2 days has been a very mad working experience for me.. because tomorro there is a function event for 250 people.. so we have to prepare food for them.. so before even cooking, we have to cut meat and do the nesssary stuff first.. but it seems like doing that has already tire us down.. just imagine.. making chicken cutlet for 250 people.. making chicken cutlet is using chicken leg and coat it with flour, eggs and breadcrumbs.. so it's not easy.. but thank God that all was done finished.. *phew*

oh ya.. Saturday is National Day.. so an early greeting to all..

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!

to know that on Saturyday, there will be a lot of boats going out to sea, it means more work for me.. because the club that i'm working at provides loan of yachts.. so they can enjoy the fireworks.. so Sentosa can see FIREWORKS!!

looking through my photos, i came across the photos that i took in New Zealand during my army time..

Allen, Jason, Me.. the 2 guys on my left are my bunkmates and section members. 2 of them are also my good buddies too.. there should be another one..but he was staying in Singapore at that time..

these are the group of guys that when they first came into my camp, they were just recruits just passed out from BMT.. i was their course Sergeant.. except the guy on the bottom left of the picture, wearing white.. He was my signaller.. all of them have completed their 2 years of NS last June..

this guy on the right is my good buddy during our trainee days.. he is a very quiet person and a person that cherise friendships.. really takes good careof me when i'm sick during that time..

today, as i was working, i was thinking something, not really focusing on the chores that i'm supposed to do.. this question came into my mind..

Why Do I Want To Leave Singapore After The Attachment??

i'm like asking myself that, and searching for answers in my heart.. part of me said that is to find and experience new working environment.. i find that working in Singapore is too hectic and really rushing to meet the time, and sometimes, forgoing the quality.. that's not very right, because customers pay every cents to get the top quality.. and also.. peole in Singapore are very selfish, thinking all about themselves.. really don't want to work like this..

another part of me is saying that... hmmm.. just to get out of here..

but the 3rd part is saying that i should stay in Singapore.. everybody are in Singapore.. even Joyce, my "daughter", keep asking me to stay in Singapore and not to go overseas to work..

so i'm very confused with all that..

think it's time for me to sleep.. long day tomorrow.. with prayer meeting in the evening..

Tata~
Take care!!

And yet,

to say the truth,

reason and love

keep little company together nowadays..

-William Shakespears,

A Midsummer Night's Dream

2008-08-05T23:04:00.003+08:00

hey PEEPS!!!

time to blog..

the past few days at work, they were the most maddening days.. stocks and meats piling and being delivered like free.. so much so much.. they can like feed a family of 5 for like 3 months~!! on the 1st of August only, 1 month for a family of 5!! just imagine how much is it.. gosh!!

and also for the past few days, i have been very very tired.. to a point that i really don't feel like doing anything except sleeping and laying in bed for the whole day.. especially after the game of basketball on Saturday, which i will get to that later, for Sunday and Monday, really just sleep and not go to work.. maybe i wasn't that fit as last time.. "i'm getting old.."

as for the basketball match on Saturday, Region A lost to Region D 72-40.. to me, the score was quite bad.. but given the fact that i had 6 under-14 kids, it's a very good result.. one of the outreach kids told me that he was sad that we lost.. for that moment, i was speechless and felt the sadness in him.. haiz.. :(

oh ya.. got the NEW book of the Twilight Series, Breaking Dawn on Monday from Midori!! because she went to collect the books that she had pre-ordered before.. so ya.. so excited!! finished the first 3 chapters already!! quite nice!! and it's thick.. -.-'''

Breaking Dawn!! 4th book of the Twilight series

think it's time to sleep..
have to work tomorrow..

TaTa~

when you loved the one who was killing you,

it left you no options.

how could you run,

how could you fight,

when doing so would hurt that beloved love?

if your life was all you had to give your beloved,

how could you not give it?

if it was someone you truely loved?

-Isabelle Swan, Breaking Dawn

2008-07-29T20:29:00.002+08:00

hey peeps..

i never know that training for basketball is so so so tough.. given the fact that i have not been playing basketball for so long.. and that i have not been training and keeping fit..

for Saturday, it was the first training practice and match.. then it was quite a fast and hard training.. but i took it well and got toned up a lot..

then on Monday, which was yesterday, a short one..

and now, i feel the toil of the training upon me.. the tiredness and aching feeling.. so i cancelled my swimming for today.. resting until tomorrow.. and Thursday will be my last training day before the match on Saturday..

pray that everything goes well on Saturday..

guess i better head to dreamland.. and rest..
sleep well people!!

tatA~~

everyone has their own life to run..

no one is to control anyone..

nor judge anyone..

because only God can do that..

2008-07-25T23:26:00.004+08:00

hey people..

it's time to blog again..

the song that is on the blog is very meaningful.. whether you're a believer or not, this song really speaks a lot..

When you Believe

Many nights we've prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

In our hearts a hopeful song

We barely understood

Now we are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountains long

Before we knew we could

There can be miracles, when you believe

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will

You will when you believe

In this time of fear

When prayers so often prove in vain

Hope seems like the summer birds

To swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here

My heart's so full I can't explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will

You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask

And it's easy to give in to your fears

But when you're blinded by your pain

Can't see your way straight throught the rain

Small but still, resilient voice

Says love is the relief

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles, you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will

Somehow you will

You will when you believe

You will when you

You will when you believe

Just believe...in your heart

Just believe

You will when you believe

whenever you believe, there can be miracles.. nothing is too difficult to believe..

to all Region A people that worked hard for Create 2008:
all of you have done well.. though we didn't win most of the categioes, we have put in our best effort..

i just want to thank God that i have not cut my own fingers for 3 days.. Thank God for His protection and wisdom..

next sport that will be playing are basketball, volleyball, and track and field..
i'm put into playing basketball.. and i thank God that i was able to change my off days to the days where there is a basketball match.. and i think i'm in for the track and field too.. pray that i can do well..

as for basketball, i have not been really training a lot, or should i say, practicing shooting for quite a long while.. and that my fitness has dropped a lot.. it also means that i have grown unfit....

UNFIT = FAT

so ya.. time for some serious training and practicing.. so i have come up with a training schedule to gain back my fitness and stamina..

Saturday - Basketball Training

Sunday - Rest

Monday - Basketball Training

Tuesday - Swimming

Wednesday - Rest (G12)

Thursday - Swimming

Friday - Rest (Hearts On Fire)

Saturday - Off (Match Day)

hope i can stick to this schedule and that i can gain back my fitness and get ready for Saturday's first game..

ending here..

Tata..

Time To Play The Game....

2008-07-19T22:54:00.002+08:00

hey peep...

today was the create's cooking part.. don't know how to spell.. so ya..

too bad that i can't go for the event.. so wished that i can go and join.. and help out.. but heard that they had done well.. pray that we will win..

also heard that the next Heart . Sport is 5-on-5 basketball.. how i wish i can play.. pray that i can get off on Saturdays..

time to sleep.. very tired..

tata~

2008-07-16T22:51:00.002+08:00

Heey Peeps!!

Very excited for this movie to come~

Twilight

Here's some of the trailers for the movie that comes 12 December~!!
Enjoy!!

New Twilight Trailer

Official Twilight Trailer

2008-07-15T09:16:00.000+08:00

heeey people..

something to share..

enjoy..

2008-07-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

hey people..

quite a number of things happened since starting of work..

yesterday.. went to HSA to donate blood.. then when it's time to test for the level of iron, my blood wasn't able to have sufficient iron.. so i was refered back to the doctor.. and the doctor read my iron level, saying that for a male, my iron level was very low.. he also said that 3 factors contribute to the cause..

inherited
diet
body cannot produce iron

for diet, it's impossible.. because i have been eating non-stop, until i gained like 5kg from my last weight..
fo inherited, no one from my family has this problem.. at least i have not heard of that before happening in my family.. so it's impossible..
so it leaves with the 3rd factor.. which i'm not very sure of myself.. very worried..

then because of standing for really long hours, like 6 1/2 hours everyday, my right calf muscle is now feeling pain and numb.. even a short standing or sitting down hurts a lot..

i don't know what's wrong again.. everything feels like all out of place..

stoning away~

2008-07-09T10:32:00.003+08:00

good morning peeps~

sorry for the long absense.. lots to update.. i think..

Saturday..
went for heart.sports.. playing for 3rd and 4th placing with Region B.. quite a fun time in the field, joking and playing with them.. and thank God that we won the game.. so... 3rd place of Region A in Super Captain's Ball..

then watched the ladies fight it out on the court for 1st and 2nd placing Finals against Region B in Captain's Ball.. and i really mean fight it out.. but Region A won that game..

CHAMPIONS FOR CAPTAIN BALL - REGION A

Congrats ladies for the hard work and effort put in.. don't think too much of the injuries.. because it's natural..

Sunday..
IT'S JOELLE BIRTHDAY~

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOELLE~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

me, Midori, Jan, Jovin, Shawn and Joy planned to celebrate her birthday before the service but guess what? WE FORGOT ABOUT THE BIRTHDAY GIRL! so we posponed it after the service.. we got her a ice cream cake.. and then asked her to blow out the candles.. and then something missing.. PLATES AND FORKS! but thank God that i had my metal forks and spooons with me.. so ya, eating from the box itself.. and then guess what? i was left along with Joshua, Joelle's brother, to finish the WHOLE cake.. -.-''''' because some of them have to have their lunch and then went back to practice for band.. and some have meeting.. then Joshua said that he has to go.. so.... ME AND THE CAKE.. well.. to cut the story short, i finished the ALMOST the whole cake.. haha..

Joelle's brithday cake~ Now you see it.................

Now you don't.........

in the evening, went for filming for the Create 2008 video.. at a secret location (i still cannot tell you all where and about the story line.. high authority's orders.. sorry..).. very fun and interesting.. haha.. you shall see watch it on Create 2008~~!!

Create 2008

2 days of fun, music, drama, video and art
18 & 25 July 2008

7.30pm @ Prov, Level 4

See you there~~

Monday & Tuesday
first and second day of work.. didn't really looking forward for it.. but still have to go through it.. so ya.. i went.. feeling like a noob there.. the people there are quite nice, probably for the first few days.. learned how to filet salmon, since i was being posted to the butchery section for 3 months.. it's a 9-5 job, but have to work on every Sunday.. sian.. no church on Sunday.. saw one of the pastry students from Shatec there.. at least a familiar face..

Wednesday (Today)
so today.. you will be wondering.. why am i able to write blog at this time? well.. TODAY IS MY OFF DAY! ya.. and i woke up like 30 minutes ago, sleeping at 9.30pm last night.. more than 12 hours of sleep~ so ya..

think i will end here..

tata~

2008-07-07T23:02:00.001+08:00

hey peeps..

this post makes the 260th entry in this blog..

i shall blog more tomorrow..

good night~

Tata~

2008-07-02T22:12:00.003+08:00

hey everyone..

i finally finished watch Band Of Brothers.... again..

yup.. if i didn't remember wrongly, after this time, it will be the 5th time watching that serie of wartime, World War I and the bonding that brought the men together.. and that reminded me about the times that i had in the army - the training that me and my buddies had, outfield training that went through the night without any sleep, going out together after a hard day of training and even just staying in our bunk rotting, talking and making noise together.. i just miss those days.. but well.. someone asked me last night, asking me to ask them out.. well.. all of us have our own lives to run, busying with our own stuff.. studies, girlfriends, other friends.. so ya.. those are happy and bonding memories..

oh ya.. i don't know whether i'm supposed to say this.. but i'm involved in the Create's Video.. one of the actors.. so ya.. interesting.. haha..

next Monday will be the first day will be the first day in the attachment company.. but to let you all know, i'm not at least excited.. well, that's the question that i asked myself.. "why am i not excited?" hope it will go well.. pray..

i think i will end here..

updating soon..

Tatttaaaa~

2008-06-30T08:54:00.002+08:00

Hi People!!

time to blog..

last Saturday was a great day for Region A.. though the guys lost the semi finals of the Super Captain's Ball, but we had a great game.. Region C was real good with a strong shooter and we have to play really hard to win.. and hard we did play.. well, Region C is still better.. Congrats Region C!!

as for the ladies of Region A, WELL DONE!! all of them have done very well and very hard to win the semi finals against Region D.. they have kept their cool, play how they were supposed to play and God prevails.. WELL DONE LADIES!!

yesterday, went to watch Get Smart with my friend.. it was a very-super-funny-and-a-bit-out-of-point movie.. there was like super funny scenes and a super gross scene.. to fnd out what is the gross scene is, watch the show!! you won't regret the show if you're looking for a good laugh~

oh ya..
Congrats to Midori and Joelle in getting in to the Vocal Solo for Region A.. Jia you~ Region A will be all behind you..

time to stone at home~

taTa

2008-06-25T08:06:00.004+08:00

good morning everyone..

time to blog..

yesterday, i made some burgers from scratch.. it means that i made the meat patties from minced meat (if you don't know).. quite a success.. but there is still room for improvement.. like the taste of it.. the flavour can be more strong and the colour contrast of it.. at least i have achieved to get the juicy part, not dry.. i shall research more.. Jia you!! oh ya.. this research is meant for Create 2008.. so ya.. i will try improve it today..

have a good day everyone..

God bless~

and oh ya.. to Yuhui(if she gets to see this):
Enjoy your trip at Thailand!!

Tata~~

2008-06-23T09:38:00.003+08:00

hey everyone...

if you're wondering what i can blog so early, it's because IT'S HOLIDAYS~

well.. not exactly holidays for me.. more like a short break before my attachment starts.. it will be at 1degree 15 marina club.. sound cool? well.. it's really cool, with all the wind blowing, and the very nice scenic view.. hope that it's a good place to work at.. 07th of July.. first day of work..

exams were finally over.. no more studying.. hope my result will not be too bad..

it's only the first day of the holidays...... and i'm already bored!!!

was reading blogs of others.. people having holidays overseas, having some much fun with their friends, having BBQ and enjoying themselves.. i feel happyy for them.. but at the same time, sad.. it's been a long time since i really have a good time with friends, after so much things happened.. and that overseas trips have been in my mind for the longest time.. but the sadest thing is the money.. and the companion to go with during the trip.. that's why i have to stay in Singapore for the holidays.. it has been like... 5 years??(excluding overseas training trip during the army times) i'm not saying that Singapore is not a good place to be.. it has been.. i miss all the fun..

guess i shouldn't be so emo during the holdays.. it will make things worst.. so cheer up~~!!

enjoy your day~

taaataaa!!

2008-06-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

HEY EVERYONE!!!

tomorrow will be the last paper for the entire studying time!! after that will be freedom~

oh ya.. this poem just came in..

As the curtain draws a close to this semster

i looked back
at the happy moments that we had

but we have none..

and at bad memories

too much to say

worth of 10 weeks

but all i will want to say

is thank you

thank you for making me stronger
with all the nasty words and insults

thank you for the pressure

that now, i'm tougher

though BBQ is organised

i won't go

kindness isn't felt

closeness isn't there

to you, not to me

i have given out forgiveness

but not trust

because all of you

are not worthy of it

so long, strangers

all the best for your future

to the places that you go

and try to treat people better

hope that tomorrow's paper will go smoothly.. pray for me.. thanks!!

time to hit back to the notes and books
for the last time..
GANBATE~!!!

TaTa~~